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First Seasons

2011-07-24T15:18:00.002-05:00

Have you ever noticed how the first season of any tv sucks? I don't necessarily mean in terms of stories, acting, etc, but in just the overall general look and feel of the show? I started watching SVU from the beginning last night and that very first episode, I could hardly believe it's the same show. And honestly, it is an episode I have seen a million times, thanks to USA reruns, but putting it in perspective as watching from the beginning, wow. SVU, Friends, Buffy, The Office, House, all have this problem. The shows just feel different from what they evolved into, and that's a good thing, it shows growth, so to speak.

Buffy is the best example of this, the show was so dark, literally. Perhaps they couldn't afford proper lighting at the time? And true, the scripts were good, but delivery wasn't always so great, even on Buffy's part. But by season 2 it was on the right track and became one of the greatest shows ever to grace us with its presence.

The only complaint I have about House in this area is similar to Buffy, it was just darker. And the set looked smaller, I guess, at least in the first few episodes. I don't know that it lasted the entire season, I don't really remember. But I watched the pilot not long ago and wow, hard to believe it was the same show.

SVU has naturally evolved too, and thank goodness. In the first couple episodes, it was darker, yes, but the feel of it was different too. And Olivia was not well-written. She was so emotional, and that's not her at all, not when it comes to the job. It didn't last long, and neither did the annoying parts of the cast (Jeffries and Cassidy, anyone?) Another change I've noticed is the focus on the courtroom. In the early shows, anything we saw in the courtroom was unrelated to the main case, because we never saw the case go that far, just far enough to find out who the perp was. I think this is partly due to the fact that Angie Harmon was primarily on just the original Law and Order. It would be difficult to split a major character between two major shows. Enter Alex Cabot (by far the best ADA they've ever had, btw). There was also a lot of focus on Stabler's family in the beginning, in nearly every episode, actually. This results in him being without a shirt sometimes. I am a fan of this.

The Office has that different feel too, and luckily it didn't last long or I don't think I could have kept watching it. Not necessarily darker, but those first few episodes in season 1 feel so different from all subsequent seasons, and thank goodness. If you can believe it, Michael is far less annoying in every season since 1. True story.

Lastly there's Friends, the love of my t.v. life. I can watch this show over and over and over and never get tired of it. I'm one of those people who can't sleep without some noise. So I turn the t.v. on low enough that I can hear the conversation, but not loud enough that it will keep me awake. I chose Friends because I have all ten seasons (thanks to Mom being awesome) and can cycle through them without getting bored because there's ten years to go through. Additionally, because it is something I have seen so many times, there is rarely a time when I get so wrapped up in it that it keeps me awake - although "The One Where No One's Ready" will keep me entertained forever and I can't fall asleep if that one on. Best episode, no doubt. Anyway, Friends is also a prime example of the show being darker, feeling different. And each one started out for the first few episodes with them sitting in the coffee house having some ridiculous battle of the sexes type discussion or something related. However, that conversation was completely unrelated to everything that came after the opening titles.

I'm sure there are other shows that fall into this category too, if you have any to add, feel free!

I'm Back...

2011-07-22T19:41:00.004-05:00

For real this time. And I will probably actually delete the previous couple saying this same thing, because this time I mean it, and here is why:

C is amazing.

Now here's the thing, I can't tell you C's name. Because in her blog, that is how she refers to herself and it makes sense, because anonymity is nice.

But she is amazing and for some reason despite being friends for a long time and Sisters, I had not read her blog. Then I read an older entry of hers from a few months ago and something about it just struck me. She is a fabulous writer and her adventures are often hilarious but she always writes of them in such a way that just makes you wish she was a full time writer.

Anyway, I linked to her blog so check it out...if anyone reads this anymore. But this is a new beginning, so hopefully I will be able to find my way once again.

Heeeeeeeey

2010-02-16T22:46:00.001-06:00

So I am still not dead and no one even reads this anymore but that's okay because I can just say whatever I want and not have to both with the crazies.

I'm working on my application for Sarah Lawrence again. And I want to live in LA. There are so many things I want to do with my life and I definitely can't stay in Nebraska to do them. I need to get the fuck out of here.

I'm Not Dead

2009-07-10T13:55:00.002-05:00

Just haven't had a lot to say lately. Well, I have but I haven't had a lot to say on here because things have been crazy-busy.

But.....

Scotland is a go in November. Mom was so surprised she cried. I am the best daughter ever.

News That Makes Me SO Happy...

2009-04-08T00:46:00.002-05:00

...And if you don't like said news, then you can just suck it because it means you're ignorant and lame and someone I would never want to know anyway.

IOWA

VERMONT

DC

April Is Going to Be the BEST MONTH!

2009-01-10T23:31:00.002-06:00

It is confirmed...

David is going to be here the 16th - 19th!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!

On a side note...I don't know when exactly I stopped calling him Teetz and started calling him David. Sad. I guess we really are growing up.

Can Song Lyrics Capture Us Any More Perfectly Than This Little Ditty? I Think Not.

2008-12-17T21:57:00.002-06:00

Disclaimer: Despite using this song, I do not in anyway condone listening to Katy Perry. Her live performances are shit. Her voice is shit. Her album is good only because it is not her warbling pathetically live, but polished over several hundred times during recording. However, this song is fitting.

Hot 'N' Cold
Katy Perry

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

Bridezillas and Stroganoff

2008-12-03T15:39:00.001-06:00

And a tall glass of Jack and Coke. It's just that kind of day.

Obama Wins! Yay! But I'm Still Mad....

2008-11-06T11:51:00.005-06:00

I am a few days late of course, but better late than never, right? What an amazing night. However, despite this amazing victory for not only people of the US, but specifically a group of people who have long been oppressed in our country, another group that continues to be discriminated against to this very day were faced with a huge set-back. And if you so blindly think that racism is dead and gone from the US, then you need to crawl out from under the rock you've been living under and just take a look at some of the following Facebook statuses I saw after Obama was declared the winner:

'ANTICHRIST'
'TERRORIST'
'God help our country...'

and then there were the message board posts saying he would not last long. Sound like a threat, much? DISGUSTING.

Despite this great achievement, I am deeply saddened by the fact that though one civil rights issue is on its way to possibly being resolve, another group working for recognition in our nation were denied a simple right afforded to all straight Americans. I am absolutely disgusted by California, Arizona, Florida, and Arkansas. The first three states passed propositions that allow bans on gay marriage, while Arkansas passed a proposition that bans gay couples from adopting. You know, because those gays will turn all the kids in foster care waiting for homes gay if we give them the chance. Never mind that there are hundreds of thousands of children who need loving homes that so many couples are willing to provide, gay or straight. Clearly, only straight people are good parents. Straight people never abuse children, never cheat the system out of money, and only straight people are fit to be parents. Those darn gays, just unfit all around.

Yeah. Right.

I guess I kind of expected the gay marriage bans to pass in Arizona and Florida, as much as it pains me to say that. But California? Really? It is so depressing and deeply disturbing that in 2008, people would believe it is still okay to treat a significant portion of our population as second class citizens. Do not give me bullshit about religion and how gays cannot marry because God condemns homosexuality. Your argument is complete garbage and not remotely relevant, because atheists get married all the time, and they do not subscribe to this Christian mythology that so many right-wing conservatives use as justification for denying citizens the basic rights and protection afforded to our straight citizens. It is appalling and so fucking infuriating that people feel so threatened that they would ban something that DOESN'T EVEN EFFECT THEM!

A few days ago my Facebook status said something to the effect of wondering if someone could explain to me how two dudes getting hitched made a hetero marriage any less valid. You know what I got? A bunch of bullshit about why homosexuality was wrong. Not one single solitary way that it affected this guy's marriage, but just why it was wrong. You know what I say to that? Fuck you. Seriously. You don't like gay marriage? Then DON'T GET ONE. It did not affect this guy in any way if two dudes or two chicks wanted to get married, but yet it was wrong. I even asked him again how it specifically affected him but he quit responding because he was pouting when I referred to his argument as this 'Christian mythology'. Boo-fucking-hoo. I know just as many gay people who are religious and practice their faith, as those I know who do not. I know just as many atheists who are married, and did it have one fucking thing to do with church? NO. Because marriage does not have to have religion involved. And I am so sick and tired of this bullshit and people trying to dictate how others can live their lives. People do not ask to be gay, but that is how they are made, and it is absolutely disgusting that because of something they can not control, they are treated as though they are not full citizens of our country. You know, the place that is the 'home of the free'.

Yeah, free my ass.

Well...

2008-09-29T11:05:00.003-05:00

PAM AND JIM ARE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!

I've watched the episode like, 5 times now. It's amazing. But then this guy said that he saw a clip for next week and Pam cheats on Jim when she kisses some guy she goes to art school with. Okay, so if that happens I will be DEVASTATED. There's no such thing as 'just a kiss'. Jim will be CRUSHED.

As for other life situations...

We lost to VA Tech, no surprise but a win would have been nice of course. We didn't look so hot for some of the game, but there were a couple really ridiculous calls in the 4th that fucked us over too. Jackie was here and that was fun and I got to meet Derek finally. They're so cute together, it's sickening.

As for my own deal... who knows. He's a big weirdo anyway and we can somehow talk about everything except what I said to him. Which is frustrating because I am a person who values closure. But at least we're talking.

I love being in school again and not subbing all the time. Pretty much, I decided I am only going to sub at Park because, well, I can. I need to focus on school and that's that.

JohnRoss and Laura are getting married in a little over a month, that's so crazy! Two weeks before the wedding I am going home to see NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK! and then two weeks after, Mom is coming here and we're going AGAIN! I can't wait. At least now I kind of know how to get back to Lincoln for the Qwest Center because, I hate to admit this, but Tom and I kind of got lost a little on our way back from JT. Not lost exactly, but we just went the wrong way to get back on to 80. But in our defense, neither of us had ever driven to Qwest before. I certainly don't go to Omaha unless I absolutely HAVE to because it's a clusterfuck. And Tom hadn't been to Qwest either. Whatever, Mom and I will be fine. OMG, I can't wait!

Okay, it is seriously homework time. I worked in Burnett yesterday and it was so fucking hot, they turn the air off at like, 4, and we were open til 9. Kids were complaining about how hot it was, and everyone was actually sweating. I know, right? Gross.

Oh Shit

2008-09-25T14:49:00.002-05:00

So I did it. I said what I needed to say and...

I'm not patient. I already know the outcome but as Pam said on The Office after Beach Day, "For the record, I am not embarrassed at all. It needed to be said, and I said it. And it only took me three years to summon the courage. So … (bows) thank you."

It's all off me now and I feel better. I'll probably never see him again now, but hey, at least I said what needed to be said.

And speaking of The Office...SEASON PREMIER TONIGHT!!!!!! YAY! I love Jim and Pam. I need a Jim. That would be FAB-U-LOUS.

Buckcherry was fucking awesome. Aleah and I were pretty wasted but it was a good time. Good time, indeed.

Why the VMAs SUCKED

2008-09-07T23:07:00.003-05:00

...there are so many reasons, I don't even know where to begin, so I guess we'll just start at the top.

Why the VMAs Sucked:

No Justin Timberlake. Last year's VMAs were decent because the show was peppered with JT. He better get another album out in time for next year, or else that one is going to suck too. He can't rely on Madonna to win more VMAs obviously since they didn't win for "4 Minutes"
JT not winning. Boo.
Taylor Swift talking. At all.
The Jonas Brothers singing. Who decided these guys had talent?
Katy Perry singing live. Seriously, her live performances are SHIT. I don't know if she does it on purpose or what but every time I hear her live, she SUCKS. Plus, the vid for "I Kissed a Girl" was shit too. But that's not the point.
Michael Phelps was not on long enough. Sad.
Danity Kane and The Pussycat Dolls being acknowledged as 'artists'.
Lindsay Lohan being at the VMAs. WTF. Granted, she announced the winning of the lame 'dance-off' between the lame dance crews from Randy Jackson's lame dance crew show, but still. WTF.
Miley Cyrus butchering a classic Bon Jovi song. Seriously.

Things That Could Have Been Redeeming About the VMAs, but There Was too Much SUCK to Overcome:

Russell Brand imploring America to vote for Obama, referring to Bush as a retarded cowboy. CLASSIC.
Michael Phelps introducing Lil Wayne.
Leona Lewis being AWESOME.
Britney Spears NOT dancing. (Although a video leaked online of her rehearsing with some dancers, and bitch looked goooooood)

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!

2008-09-02T16:40:00.002-05:00

New Kids on the Block released their newest album todaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!

I'm buying it as soon as I leave work at Burnett, before I go to class at Barkley. OMG! OMG! OMG!

On October 22nd I will be home for their concert at ExCel, then Momma is coming here for their concert November 12th at Qwest!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously.

I. CAN. NOT. WAIT.

SO. EXCITED.

McCain's VP

2008-08-29T17:09:00.002-05:00

What a cute little strategy, McCain. Here's what I imagine your thought process to be like: With Hillary out of the race, many of her supporters have not been quick to back Obama, despite her speech a few nights ago calling for party unity. So what better way to scoop up all those votes than to choose a female vice president?

DO NOT FALL FOR IT!

While I myself did not support Hillary entirely, this is CLEARLY an insult to the very population McCain is catering to. Just because Sarah Palin has a vagina, it does not make her and Hillary equal in any way, shape, or form. In fact, it is downright insulting that McCain would believe one is as good as the other to gain these votes. Sarah Palin and Hillary Clinton could not be more opposite and if I had not already made up my mind long ago about who I was voting for, this definitely would have made my decision for me. Disgusting tactic and ridiculous ploy.

In addition to the ridiculousness of thinking one vag is as good as another in office, let's not forget the fact that John McCain is a million years old. Okay, not a million, but you get the idea. If he is not able to fulfill his duties as president, do you really want our next president to be someone who is the governor of a state that has about 50 people, with absolutely no foreign policy experience? No. McCain can no longer use the argument that Obama is inexperienced; Palin has far less experience than he does, and is clearly less-suited for the position of president, or even vice president for that matter.

I truly hope Obama CRUSHES McCain this fall. Cross your fingers.

OBAMA '08!

FAB.U.LOUS.

2008-08-19T18:54:00.002-05:00

I had a great time in Seattle. It was really hard to leave, but I had a great time, met some amazing people, and drank a ton. The pictures are on Facebook.

Things I Liked About Seattle:
David - DUH
The Elite - really fun bar
Capitol Hill - David's neighborhood
Starbucks - in some places, literally, EVERY block
Hannah and James - awesome
Shopping - H&M and M.A.C.
Silly pictures - David and I have perfected taking these

Pretty much everything actually, with one exception that you will find below...

Things I Didn't Like About Seattle:
Public Transportation - EW

I had a great time. I missed him the moment I got on the plane and that part sucked, but I will drag him back to Nebraska for a visit eventually, no worries. And there's always JohnRoss' wedding in November which he is supposed to be my date for...

GOOD LORD I'M GOING TO EXPLODE!

2008-08-14T09:41:00.002-05:00

In just a matter of hours I will be boarding the plane that will take me to Dallas (puke), then on to Seattle (YAY!)

In other news, I'm working in Burnett right now til noon, and I think I've discovered what exactly a 'baby prostitute' smells like, as Janis so lovingly called Cady in Mean Girls, thanks to some girl taking her Geography 155 final exam. Seriously.

TIME UPDATE!!!!!

2008-08-13T15:42:00.000-05:00

31 hours, 16 minutes

Can You Tell I'm Excited About This Trip?

2008-08-13T12:19:00.001-05:00

35 hours and 41 minutes

DE-LICIOUS!

2008-08-13T09:53:00.002-05:00

So Teetz would kills me for uttering this statement, but I am not really into the Olympics. I think it's fun to watch gymnastics and swimming and basketball, but otherwise I don't really care. My interest in swimming started at the last summer Olympics when Michael Phelps was being really hott. He's still being really hott this time around too and makes swimming that much more fun to watch. Not to mention he's totally ripped, I want to lick chocolate sauce of his abs. No joke.

I'm going to be landing in Seattle in 37 hours and 3 minutes. I will update accordingly throughout the day - for two reasons. 1) I am in Burnett all day and totally bored and 2) it makes the time seem to go by faster.

On a Happier Note

2008-08-08T13:53:00.002-05:00

I took my final this morning for ed psych and now am done with three classes on my way to my Masters. I'm pretty much awesome. This was a harder test than the mid-term but I think I did okay anyway. As long as I walk out of the class with an A, then I won't have a problem. I can no longer dick around as I did in my days as an undergrad, this time school has to matter and can't just be one big drunken blur of friends and fights and drama and booze. Not that I did poorly with all of those things distracting me, I still ended up with a 3.5 but I could have done better, which is the goal this time around. I have all my books for Fall classes, I'm good to go, my schedule is going to be hectic though and I will probably want to kill someone or myself before this first month is over, but once I am done at Park and will be subbing only when I want to, then it will be a lot better.

FIVE DAYS UNTIL I GET TO SEE TEETZ!!!!!!

Sexism is Alive and Well

2008-08-06T15:21:00.004-05:00

Now, anyone who has read Tobes' blog knows by now she is much more eloquent and better at getting her thoughts and opinions organized than I am, in addition to just knowing a shit-ton of information about everything, ever, it seems.

But something really has been bugging me for a while and today I just have to talk about it, even if it is rambling and incoherent...

...And when am I one to hold back when something is on my mind, right? Anyway. I'm not sure exactly why I feel compelled to write about this now, maybe it was because today in class we were talking about getting out early after handing in our final proposals and someone said something about how last time that happened in the previous class (a lot of the people in my current class took a class together with the same instructor in the first five week session too) that this student, "threw a fit" and "cried about it like a little girl."

So apparently little boys don't ever cry. Just those stupid, emotional girls.

But I let it go and didn't say anything because it's an ed psych class and not one about gender inequality and after staying up late writing the damn proposal that sparked that moment of irritation, I was too tired to even get into it.

But still I thought about how a comment like that to most people wouldn't cause them to bat an eye, it's pretty common place. And then I thought about something almost as ambiguous a few months ago, and it made me mad:

Six months ago, someone I know very well had an abortion. Let's call her Nikole. The details and such are not necessary, other than the father, let's call him Jordan, was not someone she was in an actual relationship with, though someone she'd known for a long time. Let's just say things were complicated with them. When they'd decided on having an abortion as opposed to continuing the pregnancy and either keeping the baby or giving it up for adoption, Nikole had an ultrasound done to determine how far along she was and if the abortion was even an option at this point. Big surprise, Jordan was not able to go with her to the ultrasound because he had Physics Lab that morning, but they'd been talking most of that morning beforehand, as well as every day since they'd found out. One f the last texts he'd sent her before she left for the ultrasound was, 'Don't let them tell you the sex'.

Would it have made a difference?

Of course.

Had she found out it was a boy (and by the way, she was not nearly far enough along for the sex of the fetus to be determined anyway, that's not usually possible until at least 18 to 22 weeks along), the chances of him wanting to keep it would likely have increased.

Had she found out it was a girl, nothing would have changed.

Ultimately, it was Nikole's decision either way and Jordan acknowledged this from the start, saying no matter what she decided to do, he would support her decision and do whatever he could to help out.

But it is still sad to know that sometimes, babies are only wanted if they're boys.

Not News: Wal-Mart Still Sucks

2008-08-01T13:54:00.005-05:00

Good God Blogger sucks so much ass sometimes!

I tried posting this as an embedded link 12 fucking times and it's not working like it's supposed to, so just click on the full link below to read up on why Wal-Mart sucks even more than we first thought.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/08/01/wal-mart-warns-workers-of_n_116279.html

Less Than Two Weeks!

2008-07-31T15:09:00.000-05:00

I CAN'T WAIT!

In the Teens!

2008-07-25T16:13:00.002-05:00

Yes, that's right, no longer am I stuck in the 80s, 60s, or even 30s. Exactly 19 days from now I will be on my way to the Omaha airport to see Teetz!

Can you tell I am kinda excited about this trip? First of all, I love my BFF dearly and it has been way too long freaking long since I have seen him. Secondly, I haven't been on a vacation since Chicago with Crazy Rachel during Spring Break our junior year of college. Yay!

Thank God Mine is NOT Laminated...

2008-07-22T22:05:00.003-05:00

So my Friends 5 list is pretty consistent, previously it has been:

1. Justin Timberlake
2. Kevin Garnett
3. Christopher Meloni
4. John Krasinski
5. Johnathan Rhys Meyers

Now, I have a problem. In my infinite stupidity, I have excluded Christian Bale from this list for years. Yet, I have seen nearly every single movie he has ever been in and have loved him since Newsies. What the hell is my problem?

New List:
1. Justin Timberlake
2. Kevin Garnett
3. Christian Bale
4. Christopher Meloni
5. John Krasinski

It was a tough call between Krasinski and Meyers. K is so adorable and goofy and I love the character he plays on The Office. M is has the most sickeningly beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen, aside from Mr. David Merle Teetzen, of course. But when it came down to it, K is just adorable all the time, whereas sometimes M kind of looks like a pedophile, or coked out of his mind, or both, in photos. And a Coke head pedophile is not someone I want to bang. Thanks.

Continuing on my Christian Bale kick, tonight I bought 5 new movies (well, 6 total, but 5 have Christian in them) : The Prestige, 3:10 to Yuma, American Psycho, Reign of Fire, and Rescue Dawn. Rescue Dawn is the only one I have not seen. Reign of Fire was really...weird. And American Psycho makes me want to vomit. But I Love him, so what can I do?

The 6th movie I bought was 10 Things I Hate About You. I love that movie and it was on sale and the last copy at best Buy. It's weird watching Heath Ledger in any movie now. I think with The Dark Knight it wasn't so weird, just because it's so hard to tell that it's even him, but in a movie like this, or The Brothers Grimm, or a Knight's Tale, it's just...weird. Weird and sad. I don't think he was like, the greatest actor ever, he wasn't Brando or Pacino or De Niro. He was too young to ever make any kinds of comparisons like that. That being said however, he was an incredibly talented actor who had the potential to some day reach that, were he still alive.

P.S. Sorry for spoiling the movie Tobes, I was just in such a rush, I didn't even think as I was typing!

Two Words...

2008-07-19T00:47:00.002-05:00

HOLY SHIT.

The Dark Knight was AMAZING. Just, wow. Amazing. Not Oscar-worthy as some might suggest, but Heath played the part phenomenally; it was written for him, he is The Joker. Had I not known Heath was playing that role, I never would have guessed it was him, you couldn't tell where he left off and the character began.

Hopefully Rachel Dawes is dead for real and not for pretend like they faked Lt. Gordon's death. I'm guessing she's perma-dead though, she has to be for Harvey's transformation into Two-Face to make sense. Katie Holmes was awful in the role but Maggie Gyllenhaal was even worse. And she's ugly too. And a horrible actress. But she is the only thing I would have changed about the movie. Everything else was perfect.

Aaron Eckart becoming Two-Face was also WOW. Gross. But wow.

And Christian, I can never say enough about Christian Bale. Fabulous. Although, I could do without the husky Batman voice. Also, I wish his shirt was off a lot more in the film. Oh well. Maybe next time. Wonderful. Wonderful. Wonderful.

It was kind of sad to watch though at the end, when it was clear this was the last time Batman and The Joker would meet, and The Joker's lines were something to the effect of Batman couldn't kill him because of his rules and The Joker couldn't kill Batman because he was too much fun, and he said something about them being destined to do this forever. It's unfortunate that can never happen now, because Heath and Christian made quite the pair.

Fabulous movie. Go see it. Now.

It's About That Time...

2008-07-18T15:45:00.004-05:00

So most of us have seen it all before, that fun little game you play where you choose X number of people, write down everything you want to say to them, post it, don't acknowledge who each paragraph is intended for, and never speak of it again. It's about time for one of those because I've got some issues with some people that I think I will feel better about if I can just vent and then never have to speak of it again. I don't know how many of them actually even know I have a blog and that just works out perfectly.

1. I love you. I love you I love you I love you. A million times, I love you. And you're a dumbass because you don't even know it. And I know you love me too. And so does everyone else. So just tell me already, because I just can't be the one to say it first. Not because I like being the boss, but just because I am actually kind of scared about this one. But no matter what, I love you.

2. You're creeping me out lately. Knock it off. That's why I don't ever want to hang out with you. But stop being creepy, and I will start hanging out with you again.

3. Not having you in my life for the last seven months is the best thing that's ever happened to me. You screwed me up years ago and now I am finally getting over all of the mess you brought into my life. When I said I needed a lot of time away from you to figure out if I ever wanted to even try being friends, I meant it. Now that I have had that time, I realize I don't need you and don't want you in my life. Stop calling me. Stop Facebooking me. Forget about me, because I forget more and more about you every single day.

4. I hope every time you hold your nephew you remember that awful morning when state wrestling was more important to you than anything else. And I hope you feel bad.

5. I love you. Not in the way I love #1, but I love you. Always have, always will.

6. It's easy to get wrapped up in someone, and I've seen it happen before with you. I love you to death and you're one of my best friends, and I hate seeing you always get hurt somehow. I want you to be happy, but please just take it slow with this one. They all seem like good guys but not all of them turn out that way. Just be careful.

7. I get it. Everything is black and white for you, fine. But that's not how it is for me and that doesn't mean I am a stupid girl. It means that something affected me and I have every right to be as upset as I want to be. Don't ever talk down to me again and don't ever try to make me feel like I shouldn't be feeling what I am feeling. I'm allowed.

8. Chillax. Don't be so judgemental. Take time to enjoy life once in a while. The world won't implode because you missed one deadline, didn't read one chapter, or turned in one sub-par assignment. Be young, our 30th birthday is coming quickly.

9. I miss you already and you're not even gone yet. But that talk outside Yia Yia's meant the world to me. You are one of my best friends. I know you hate emotions and feelings and all that garbage, so I will keep it short and sweet: I love you too. I can't think of anyone else I would ever want to wheelbarrow with around the store.

10. You're gross. Cut your hair, you hippie.

Eeeek!

2008-07-17T09:34:00.002-05:00

Less than a month! 27 days to be exact! I'm crazy, I know, but I can not wait to see Teetz.

The second five weeks session started Monday, and our instructor was sick so...no class. That was nice. I forgot how much I love psychology though. I always figured that I would get my Masters in Behavior and Emotional disorders, then eventually get my PhD in School Administration. Eff that. I want to get my PhD in Educational Psychology. Which is what I said five years ago. I love being in school. I missed it terribly. I wish I could be in school forever. How awesome would it be to just be a professional student? I don't ever want to do anything else.

Dark Knight tomorrow night!!!! I can not wait. I've seen a lot of leaked footage from it and it looks AMAZING! Not just because of Heath, but he's doing a great job so far, but because Christopher Nolan is a great director and Christian Bale is fucking phenomenal actor who NEVER gets the credit he deserves. Something always seems to overshadow his performances and it kind of pisses me off. Not anyone else in the movie exactly, but outside things surrounding the movie, like Heath's death of course is the major thing this time. All you hear people say is how Heath should win an Oscar for this role (no, seriously, every person they interviewed after the premier in NYC said they would vote for him if he was on the ballot) and all of this, and there is no mention of how FABULOUS Christian Bale is. You guys wouldn't be talking him up so much if he were still alive so shame on you for exploiting Heath's death. That's EXACTLY what the studio has done, and it was all unnecessary anyway because the movie was going to be huge no matter what.

Anyway...

I have a couple chapters to read for class sooooo, I'm done.

Done and Done

2008-07-11T13:11:00.004-05:00

I had my two finals today and I did pretty well. One was a group discussion and he put all our names in a basket and called on us to answer questions - luckily we got to have notes out and we also got to ask for help from our classmates. I was more nervous about that one though because believe it or not, I hate talking in class. I do, I just hate it. The second final was easier I think; there were some questions I could not answer, so I guess it was just less stressful but not necessarily easier, if that makes sense. It was pretty much everything he'd put on the study guide though, and a lot of the true/false, matching, and multiple choice helped with the short answer.

The 4th was A-MAZING. I even camped! Can you believe it?! Beth didn't tell me we'd have to sleep in tents, because she knew if she did I wouldn't come to GI, haha. EVERYONE was there, including Moose, and he might be moving back to Omaha! That would be cool. And Jackie is moving back from Alaska in a few months, so YAY all around.

There are 33 days left between now and when I get on that flight to Seattle. I CAN NOT WAIT. Seriously, JohnRoss and I were talking last night and I was so giggly and giddy, OMG I CANT WAIT. I will take a million pictures. I should probably get another memory card, just in case. You never know what ridiculous adventures Teetz and I will end up on. Plus it's a city I have never been to before so I can be kind of touristy. But not too much, not when there is so much alcohol to be consumed with my BFF.

Speaking of JohnRoss, we're both also super excited for the next Batman, as I'm sure you can tell by one of my last posts. The first six minutes or so of the movie is on YouTube and it looks AWESOME. Take a look before they have to take it down for copy write infringement. On Sunday we're going to make chili - well, JR is going to make chili and I am going to eat it - and we're going to watch Batman Begins just as a little refresher. It's going to be awesome.

Tee Hee

2008-07-08T22:42:00.002-05:00

So this last weekend at the lake I had a huge bottle of Jack Daniels and at some point Friday night it was suggested to me that, should I ever have twin boys, or boys in general I suppose could work, I should name them Jack and Daniel. Why has this never occurred to me? Is this considered child abuse by naming your children after your favorite alcoholic beverage? It's incredibly tacky, but also kind of hilarious.

Okay so I'd never really do it because it is tacky, but I have always loved the name Jackson so I guess that will have to be enough.

Things I Am Looking Forward To

2008-07-03T16:31:00.002-05:00

My life has been pretty fucking sweet for a while now, I am lucky. There's a lot of crazy stuff coming up in the next few months, but also a lot of fun things that I CAN NOT WAIT FOR!!!!!

1. The 4th of July - As soon as I get off work, I am heading home to pack quick and I am GI bound for the weekend. Alcohol, fireworks, and four days with my boys and Beth? Can't get much better than that.

2. Grandpa's Birthday - I haven't been home since Christmas. I've seen the family in this time, but just haven't been home to do so. Only Mom knows I'm going home, I can't wait, it'll be a good surprise for Opa's birthday.

3. SEATTLE!!!! - Duh. I get to be gay in Seattle for a few days with Teetzy Weetzy. Okay, so not gay together but, nevermind, you wouldn't understand unless you know us so there's no point explaining.

4. Grandma's/Tammy's/Holden's/Kraig's Birthdays - So they all have birthdays within four days of one another and I will again be going home a weekend to surprise them and just to hang out a few days. I don't get to see my family nearly enough and I can not wait for it to happen more often once things settle down a little and I get into the swing of things being back full time in school in the fall.

5. New Kids on the Block Concert #1 - That's right, just the first one. My momma got me tickets for two, count 'em, TWO shows. This is the St. Paul show at ExCel in October where I fully intend to rock my vintage NKotB shirt that I wore when I was in first grade (still fits, I actually have it with me here in Lincoln) and my huge buttons that I will pin to my jeans as we did in the old days bearing pictures of Joey and the rest of the guys.

6. My Baby Bro Gets Married! - For those of you not privy to the information, my little brother JohnRoss is almost all grown up. He and Lauara are getting married in November and I can not wait. I adore Laura and they are just so darn perfect for each other, I can't wait. Plus I was asked to be Laura's personal attendant so I get to do the fun stuff! Yay!

7. New Kids on the Block Concert #2 - Mom may or may not be coming to Lincoln for this one, but she did get me tickets. I would like her to, I don't want to go with anyone else. Unfortunately gas prices may keep this from happening but keep your fingers crossed that she and I will be able to go to this one together too. Is it sad that I still know all the words to every single NKotB song ever? It is? Well fuck you too :) I LOVE JOEY MCINTYRE! This is also the weekend that my momma will be getting her tattoo if she finally decides on something, which I told her would be her birthday present because when she saw mine she really liked it and wanted to do something also, just something small that would be personal to her that wouldn't be obvious to everyone else. I hope they let me hold her hand, or else she might be crying a little, neither of us stand pain very well.

So there you have it, seven way awesome things going down in the next few months and there will be plenty of pictures to document the fun all along the way.

Happy 4th!

CAN'T WAIT!!!!!

2008-07-02T14:50:00.003-05:00

I can not wait for the next Batman movie!

To be honest, it doesn't really have anything to do with the fact that Heath Ledger is in it, or that it was his last film. I don't say that to be crass or cold because I enjoyed a lot of his movies, but people are so idolized after their deaths - particularly when they die incredibly young, and that's not what this is about for me. Personally, I LOVE Christian Bale. The first movie I saw him in was Newsies when I was like, nine, and I have been in love ever since. I thought he did an amazing job in Batman Begins and I have been looking forward to this one since it was announced. The fact that Heath's performance is generating Oscar-buzz doesn't really factor into the equation because, like I said, of course it is because he's no longer with us. I don't doubt he does an amazing job as The Joker, he was a very talented actor. I just think people need to relax a little bit and wait until it comes out before proclaiming that this is the "Godfather II of comic books." No joke, I read that in a review yesterday. Sorry, but almost NOTHING compares to The Godfather or The Godfather II, so don't even try. Even so, I CAN NOT wait for this movie. If you can't wait either, click HERE for a clip of the first five minutes of the flick, including Heath in action, being a bad ass with the scary fucking paint on his face.

P.S. I also can't wait to go to Seattle. 42 days, baby!

WHAT THE FUCK?!

2008-06-26T14:59:00.003-05:00

The Supreme Court decided 5-4 on Wednesday that it was unconstitutional to apply the death penalty in cases where the defendant is convicted of raping a child, and I quote, "the death penalty is not a proportional punishment for the rape of a child," despite the horrendous nature of the crime - this is taken directly from Justice Anthony Kennedy, who wrote the opinion for the majority.

I'm sorry, but WHAT?

I absolutely, positively, am 100% in favor of the death penalty for anyone convicted of this horrendous crime. Pedophiles and child molesters CAN NOT be rehabilitated, they CAN NOT be re-integrated into society after 'treatment' and therapy, they will ALWAYS re-offend.

Now, I'm not talking about the 18 year old guy who had sex with his 16 year old girlfriend or vice versa. I've said before, I find it ridiculous that in those cases that the 18 year olds then have to register as sex offenders but that is a whole other issue.

Back to the issue at hand: The Supreme Court is flat out wrong. At least leave the decision up to the states to decide whether or not to impose the death penalty, but do not make it a sweep across the board declaring it unconstitutional. I think it is pretty ridiculous that the court feels that treason and espionage are horrible enough crimes for which one can be executed, but raping a child just doesn't qualify. Disgusting.

CNN's article about the decision.

I'm Sorry I Doubted You

2008-06-21T10:48:00.006-05:00

I had the strangest dream last night. I don't know where we were, what town we were in or anything, but you were sharing a house with some friends I apparently knew in the dream, but they're not real people I know in my life. I came over to hang out with your roommates and as I pass by one of the bedrooms in the hallway, suddenly there you were, in a room - safe to assume it was yours and no one else's since all of your stuff was in it. I was so shocked to see you and I started crying right then and there. You just smiled like you knew that's what I'd been doing all along and you gave me a hug and I never wanted to let you go in that moment because I had a sinking feeling that you weren't here to stay, even though you were here now, all your stuff back where it should be, and you were standing with me, hugging me. I told you how much I missed you in between sobs and how hard it was and you told me you knew and you were sorry. I told you again that I missed you and you told me thank you for the freedom I gave you. You gave me a kiss and said I had to go soon because you did too

I know there was more to the dream, and that's where it gets even more just, out there. You were working across the street from your house at this community center, and we were both day camp counselors and I knew some of the kids and it was all just odd. It was all trivial really compared to the part when I first saw you there, and there was no real significance to any of the later stuff except I just knew I didn't want to let you out of my sight because the moment I did, you'd be gone. Sure enough, that's exactly what happened. We were standing in the gym with this massive group of kids and I lost sight of you briefly as I was giving one of the kids a piggy-back ride. I remember looking around frantically trying to find you, and suddenly you stood up, you'd been helping a kiddo tie his shoe. Then my attention was pulled away again by one of the other kids and when I looked back to find you, you were gone. Just like that. Again. Then I woke up.

More Pictures That Make Me Smile

2008-06-18T16:47:00.002-05:00

Get used to it :) That's how happy I am right now.

ESPN also had this article about KG, which I'm also posting here...

The Game of His Life

Scoop Jackson, ESPN Page 2

"I actually didn't say a word to him. I sent Kevin Eastman in to check on him and he said, 'I think he's good.'"--Boston coach Doc Rivers on Kevin Garnett prior to Game 6
BOSTON -- If you knew Kevin Garnett's life, you'd know why he was speechless but could not stop talking.
"Man … man … man."
It's what a man says when he can say nothing but wants you to know just how it feels after his life's search has been completed.
The same way he didn't say anything before the game when his coach went to search him out to possibly share a moment. The same way he couldn't speak, then screamed "Anything's possssiiibbbblllleeee!!!!" and broke down when Michele Tafoya interviewed him on the court immediately after the game. The same way he couldn't say anything else to the greatest Celtic ever as the two embraced on the floor except, "I got my own. I got my own."
It's those speechless moments for a man who can't stop talking. Those are the ones he's been waiting for.

He breathes. Exhales. "I just want to say, other than my kid being born, this has got to be the happiest day of my life right now." He says a few more things. Things about not sleeping for a week, things about changing his cell phone number so no one can find him. He breathes out once again. Bows his head.
"Man … man … man."
And this is how the end of this chapter of Kevin Garnett's life begins.
Was he waiting for this moment or was the moment waiting on him?
The moment that will eventually define a career that has placed him not only in conversations about Bill Russell but in conversations with Bill Russell. The moment when he was able to shed all the talk of what he couldn't, can't and won't do on the basketball court. The moment when he showed us that he can come up big in big games, put games on his shoulders and not defer to teammates, win when questions swirl about whether he's one of the best we've ever seen or just a taller, more skilled version of Scottie Pippen. The forever a No. 2 player, but not a No. 1.
It was that moment when he could answer all of the doubters, who for 13 years have believed -- since he first drove around Chicago, too young to get into bars, in an Audi with the license plate that read KG PICK 5 -- that he was less than the elite player he was being sold to the world as.
"You don't understand what this moment means to him," said Jimmy Jam, half of the famed record-production tandem Jam and Lewis, a friend who embraced KG when he first arrived in Minnesota. "On so many levels this is more than just being a world champion. He's a 'we' guy. This is about everything that is good about basketball. This is about the basketball gods that are looking down on this and saying, 'It's time for Kevin.'"
As the walkway between "media-can-go-no-further" and Moet showers got crowded, KG hugged Brian Scalabrine as if they were depending on each another for oxygen. Brian Scalabrine!

As he watched this moment, Jam said, "For me personally, it's almost like watching one of my sons. … From the time Kevin walked up to me in the parking lot of a grocery store and stopped me and introduced himself and asked me, 'How do I conduct myself in Minneapolis? How do I handle this? How can I be the next Kirby Puckett?' … Watching this is unbelievable."
It's the difference in being an emotional leader and a team's leader, which always gets lost when Garnett's legacy is discussed. And what got lost this season in us finding KG -- outside of watching him give the same amount of love to a teammate who didn't make the Finals roster as he did the man who won the Finals MVP -- was how we cannot make him someone we want him to be.
All season long and most evident in these last six games, we so desperately wanted him to be more dominant, less passive, more like Sam Cassell in a crucial fourth quarter than Tracy McGrady. Throughout the Finals, doubts and statements about him "not posting Pau Gasol up all day and puttin' in work" found more airtime on sports talk radio than Cialis spots. "Expect Great" became an inside joke as a slogan he had loaned to the WNBA.
Expect great. That's the stigma that had been placed on him, one he had yet to overcome in many hearts and minds. And one that he's had to live with. Until this moment in his life. When he could finally let the world know what it felt like to be Kevin Garnett.
You may not have seen that moment. It wasn't when he came out of the locker room before the game, before the rest of his teammates, to get his 90 seconds of alone time before his band of brothers entered the stage. It wasn't the play he made with 47.5 seconds left in the first half when, fouled by Lamar Odom and falling to the floor, he made that Julius Erving-esque one-handed shot. It wasn't about how he lay on the court after that foul with his fist slightly pumped in the air, a picture many writers in the press box felt was the defining moment of his career.
It wasn't found in his teaching Big Baby Davis during the game how to guard Gasol while Gasol stood right there next to them, or when he dove for a loose ball one play later, or how he capped a 13-4 run with a bucket in the lane the play after that, or when he stood under the basket on a dead ball waiting for Paul Pierce to shoot free throws and put his head on referee Joey Crawford's head and talked to him in a way no other player in the league could because no ref would listen to any other player the way they listen to KG. It wasn't in the 26 points and 14 rebounds he ended with in the greatest game of his life.

No. The moment that Kevin Garnett had been searching for his entire career came while his team, everyone from Doc Rivers to P.J. Brown, sat on the front of the stage singing Queen's "We Are The Champions." He sat between Big Baby and PX2 with the championship trophy in his hands. He closed his eyes, as if to block out everything around him, and said a few words to the trophy. Then he kissed it. He put his head on it. Then kissed it again. And held it there.
Five seconds later, it was over. That was his moment. And if asked he'll tell you that single moment with that trophy was all he ever wanted from this career. And in the most chaotic scene seen in Boston basketball in 22 years, he found a way to have that moment. Surrounded by 20,000 other people. All by himself.
But Kevin Garnett wasn't asked that question.
He was asked about his soul in front of a room full of media with a gold championship basketball next to him. After one last "Man … man … man" left his body.
After he had unabashedly let his emotions go in screaming to the rafters, after he had lost himself after the win, his inner kid released itself. He explained what it's been like to be that active, hyper, ever-moving, ever-talking person who had to suppress himself to win the title. What it's like to finally let it all out. To explain what it feels like to finally let this out of your soul.
His analogy revealed who he really is: still the kid. The beauty and innocence of what this game is supposed to be about when money, power and disrespect are not the guiding forces in your life. His answer, one of the ageless. One for the ages.
"You ever go to school," he said, finding the perfect words, "and you had a bully mess with you every day? I know everybody ain't no tough guy here. It's like that bully that you go to school every day [with] and you know when you get out of your mom's or dad's car, you know you're going to see him as soon as you walk through the doors, he's sitting there waiting to pat your pockets and mess with you. Then one day you say, 'This is going to stop today!' You walk in and as soon as the bully pats your pockets you lay his ass out and you see the expression on his face. You're sorta shook because you know what, you just knocked the bully out and you don't know how he's going to come back. The next morning when you come in and he's not there, it's like a sigh of relief. It's like getting rid of the bully. It's like I knocked the bully's ass out! I knocked his ass clean out. That's what it feels like. For all y'all who ain't been bullied, y'all got no idea what I'm talking about. But for y'all who have, you understand my story."
I think, now, we finally do.

Pictures That Make Me Smile

2008-06-18T13:50:00.003-05:00

I am still soooooooo happy that KG is finally a champ. Watching the post-game when Michelle Tafoya is trying to interview him and he could hardly speak, it was amazing. I am so happy to see Big Ticket all grown up and that the 12 years he put in at MN weren't for nothing, and that good things come to those who wait. I've not a bandwagon jumper, I won't claim that the Celtics are my favorite team, because they're not. Despite seasons of mediocrity and sub-mediocrity, the Timberwolves are my team and always will be. I am, however, loyal to KG after having watched him try to do it all on his own season after season because we never could get the players we needed to help him get a championship. But when choosing between a team that employs my favorite player of all time (behind MJ of course) and a team who employs a player that I hold an incredibly high disdain for (that's Kobe if you couldn't figure it out), it was a no-brainer who I would be cheering for in the Finals. Since the day KG was traded, I've wanted him to win this, it was why I wanted the Wolves to trade him in the first place, and where he goes, so goes my heart. I'm so happy for him, and Paul Pierce too, who has been a Celtic for ten years now, waiting much like KG did. What a game it was, 131-92. GO CELTICS!

Gay Brains

2008-06-18T13:21:00.001-05:00

So I stole this from Perez, but whatevs.

There Can Only Be One

2008-06-17T22:43:00.002-05:00

..And that ONE is BOSTON!!!!

KG FINALLY GOT HIS RING!!!!!!!!!!!

Technically the game isn't over as I write this, but Boston is up by 38, KG, Ray Allen, Rondo, and Pierce are all out, I COULDN'T WAIT ANY LONGER!!!!!!!

GO CELTICS!

HURRAY!

2008-06-16T15:12:00.002-05:00

This makes me smile.
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In other news, I got back from the family reunion last night and I had a lot of fun. It was really important to my Grandpa so it was nice to see him smile. I even went to church! The reunion was held in Titonka and Algona, Iowa, where my grandpa's grandpa was the pastor and where my grandpa's dad and aunts and uncles grew up. It was really cool to see this place and we went to church services in the church where Opa preached at from 1909 to 1924, I believe the dates were. The church has been renovated so it's not as it was, but it was still nice to be there and to see where my great grandpa grew up. He died when I was young, only 6 or so, but I still have many fond memories of him, my great grandma, and playing out on the farm with my second cousins. I've never been a country girl at all, but those were good times and good memories I have.

NO

2008-06-14T01:52:00.002-05:00

Susan Atkins has request a "compassionate release" from prison because she's dying of brain cancer supposedly. You know what I say to that?

Too fucking bad. Die in prison where you belong, bitch. All of you deserve to have each parole request denied and to rot in your cells until you take your last breath.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/CRIME/06/13/manson.atkins/index.html

Sad News

2008-06-13T16:45:00.002-05:00

Tim Russert, host of Meet the Press, died today. He was only 58.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/06/13/tim.russert/index.html

So Much to Do, So Little Time

2008-06-13T14:07:00.002-05:00

It's been ages. I know, right.

I started grad school Monday. It's not so bad, I like my prof (he teaches both classes) and I think I'm going to do fine. There's a lot of work but you know me, I work best under pressure, so it shouldn't be too bad.

Shelly is moving to Omaha. Boo. She got the DPS manager job at Store 80, which is good for her but it sucks because Omaha sucks. Our store is falling apart and they're screwing themselves over because they never replace the people who quit. I'm cutting my hours because of school so they'll have no one in DPS except weekends, which I will work because the Testing Center isn't open then until Fall.

Speaking of Burnett...LOVE IT. I love being back here, I get work done and get paid for it, and it's a pretty sweet gig. Thank goodness for jobs i actually like.

I talked to Teetz on Wednesday when the weather was super retarded and shitty, and it was AWESOME. I miss making gay jokes with him. But in 61 DAYS we can make all the gay jokes we can handle because I will BE IN SEATTLE!!

I am still super excited about NKOTB. Twice. My mom rocks so hard for getting those tickets, I am so spoiled but you know it means I'm loved. I dig they're single 'Summertime', you can totally tell it's them and I LOVE IT. I don't care what anyone says cuz y'all are haters anyway.

CELTICS WON LAST NIGHT! The last 2 minutes of the 4th quarter were the longest of my LIFE. But they did it, and now lead the series 3-1. Suck on that Kobe, you fucking douchebag

I'm going to Iowa this weekend for my grandpa's family reunion. Clara won't be there but Tomato will, so I can't wait to see him. He's get more and more ornery every time Mom tells me stories about what he's been up to. Kindergarten will be good for him but I know he's going to give his teachers more than a few gray hairs. I guess I taught him well.

That's about it for now, I've got 3 projects i could be working on right now, but I'm Perez has some more gossip for me to read so I'll probably do that first...

61 DAYS UNTIL I GET TO BE CRAZY DRUNK WITH MY BFF IN SEATTLE. No worries, we'll probably do other stuff besides drink, I'm just not sure what.

CountDOWN UPdate

2008-06-04T13:12:00.001-05:00

70 days, bitches.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-03T11:01:00.002-05:00

SO............

MOM GOT ME TICKETS TO NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK!!!!!

TWICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We're going to the St. Paul show in October and then she's coming here for the show at Qwest! I CAN NOT WAIT!!!!!!

In other news, no I don't have Internet yet but I am back working in Burnett on campus so woohoo! Facebook for hours, lucky me! Jordan put in his two weeks so as of Sunday I never have to see him again. I'm pretty much having a couple of kick-ass weeks...must mean something bad is coming...like GRAD SCHOOL.

AAUUGGHH!

2008-05-26T09:03:00.001-05:00

I'm moving! HELP!

JohnRoss and Laura are wonderful, I don't know what I'd do without them.

Oh NBA, How I've Missed You

2008-05-24T20:27:00.004-05:00

For a long time I have strayed from my first love, NBA basketball. I've always been a Wolves fan, and always will be. I was in elementary when they became a team and have enjoyed season tickets for that many years. I fell in love with Kevin Garnett from almost the moment he stepped on the court of the Target Center for the first time, and though I was bummed when he was traded (I did a huge post about this a while back) I knew it was for the best.

And I was right. Look at him now.

Kevin is now playing in the Eastern Conference Finals with the Celtics. In fact, Game 3 is on as I type. KG is in a bit of foul trouble, but it's nothing he can't handle. So, so badly, I want him to win his championship. A lot of people sit there and say championships don't matter to players, as long as they're playing and making money. You know what I say to that?

BULLSHIT.

It matters to KG. No matter how many times he is called one of the best, he knows that only one thing will actually prove it: a ring. And that's what he's always wanted. I so hope this is the season to do it.

FUTURE HUSBAND:

Also, I updated my FRIENDS 5 list when I saw the movie 'August Rush' and just how fucking gorgeous Jonathan Rhys Myers is...

1. Justin Timberlake
2. Kevin Garnett
3. Christopher Meloni
4. John Krasinski
5. Jonathan Rhys Myers

IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!!!

2008-05-20T21:50:00.002-05:00

So, I bought my ticket today and I did it all by myself. I talked to Teetz and I found a good price and he was so proud of me because he figured he would have to buy it for me and get everything set since I'm pretty non-functional when it comes to some life skills like booking an airline flight. Plus Teetz always did that kind of stuff for me anyway, but I did it myself and I am leaving for Seattle on Thursday August 14th at 5:55 PM, I will have a brief lay-over in stinky Texas, then head to SEATTLE where hopefully I will land by 11 PM where my dear will be waiting to pick me up and we will have 3 days of gay frolicking and hand-holding.

I.

CAN.

NOT.

WAIT.

I called Mom and told her, I was so excited. She even wants to go, she hasn't seen Teetz in ages either. And I'm pretty sure she still secretly wishes we'd get married.

I don't know how I am going to last til then and I don't know how I am ever going to concentrate on grad school when I've got this to look forward to.

Days Left Until Teetz and I Get Drunk and Kicked Out of Random Seattle Bar: 85!!!!!!!!

Seattle-Bound!

2008-05-18T21:32:00.002-05:00

So I just got off the phone with Teetz and GUESS WHAT!!!! August 14th, my ass will be on a plane to SEATTLE. I can't wait! We looked online and right now the cheapest fare we found was $427 but he said not to buy it yet since we can find one for less. I wanted to buy it and I was super impatient but I'll trust him, seeing as how he does fly all the time it seems like, so he'd know.

EEEEEEEK! I can't wait!!!!

We made a list of things he has to warn his boyfriend about ahead of time, just so he doesn't become concerned when Teetz and I are all over each other after we've had some alcohol, haha. Here's what we came up with so far...

Do not be alarmed when Sarah and Teetz do any and every of the following:
Inappropriate touching
Kissing
Calf-licking
Obnoxious singing
Gay Jokes
Jesus Jokes

I'm sure there will be more to come.

*Sigh* I can go to sleep happy. I love Teetz. I can't wait to see him.

The Battle Isn't Over Yet, But...

2008-05-15T13:25:00.002-05:00

Finally, someone else recognized that being considered a 'domestic partner' is NOT EVEN CLOSE to being the same as married.

Yay for California. Now the rest of the country just needs to catch up.

I Have An Addiction

2008-05-09T11:17:00.002-05:00

Admitting you have a problem is the first step, right?

So, I know I'm supposed to be saving money, pretty much every penny I get. But then, whenever I'm feeling extremely bummed, or I'm kinda sick, I feel like I need to do something to cheer myself up or feel better. Last night, I went shopping.

My name is Sarah, and I am a shop-a-holic.

No joke, I blew almost $500 last night but damn if I didn't get some great clothes. The cutest boy ever helped me at American Eagle and I don't even know his name, he was such a sweetheart and he's a senior in high school, which duh, jailbait much. But he wasn't cute in that way, he was cute in the adorable, helpful kind of way. I was trying on the outfits he picked out for me and he brought me this necklace that said on one side, 'So Into You' and the other side said 'So Over You' and he showed the me 'into you' side and said I should try it. SO ADORABLE. He also thought I was 20, til I set the record straight

Side note: I've been getting a lot of that lately, and really for the last couple years. People don't believe that I'm 25. Everyone seems to think I look like I'm 20 or 21. For reals. Which I dig because maybe when I've 40 then I'll look 35 or something.

Then off to Maurices, where lord knows I can stay for HOURS. I was there for an hour and a half - but I only had to leave because they were closing - and I seriously found amazing stuff. I didn't have time to look at jewelry, maybe I'll do that today, and shoes too, but seriously, I went crazy. Part of what set this off was that I got my 20% off coupon in the mail and I had a $10 punch card too so...who can turn down deals like that? 20% OFF MY ENTIRE PURCHASE!!!!! Sweet! Alas, I still have problems finding pants because of this big ol' ass I'm dragging around, but I did find these cute capri things so yay.

Seriously though, I know I will probably be homeless if I keep spending money, but if it's on my Maurices credit card, it doesn't really count, right?

Right?

RIGHT?

I'm doomed.

When Did I Grow Up?

2008-04-30T22:42:00.003-05:00

I know some of you might laugh at that statement and contend that I have not yet grown up, but for the most part, I have. just hear me out.

I don't know when I became an adult, really. Was it when I turned 18? When I came to college and watched my family drive away for the last time after moving me in to Sandoz? Was it the first time I moved out of the dorms? When I graduated from college? I really don't know.

I do know that I am, for the most part, financially independent now. I have been for a long time. And even in college, it wasn't as though I had an allowance like some of my friends still do. I never worked less than two jobs while in college (I still have two, even now) and for the majority of the time, I actually had three. If I was ever in a jam and needed gas money or whatever, Mom and Grandma and Grandpa were quick to help me out and for that I will always be grateful. I am happy to say that unlike some of my acquaintances, I have never had to donate blood or plasma or anything involving needles or medical tests. Yuck.

But still, as I was driving to Park this morning, it hit me that I really am an adult. I don't act like it at OD all the time, if ever, actually, because I can not take that job seriously. But I am a grown up. Sort of. Except for the four nights last week that Shelly and I went out and partied a little too hard. Yes, on a school night even. It was just fun to hang out regardless of what I had to do the next day, and it wasn't as though we were out until 4 am. I was still home and asleep by one, the time I usually end up falling asleep anyway.

I don't really know where this is going, but I do know I miss the years where I could be young and stupid seven nights a week. Those were the days.

In other news...

TAX REBATE. Wasn't expecting that much, yay.

Apartment hunting still. Will probably move, but I decided I didn't want that one I talked about previously. Something in my gut just told me to not take it, so I didn't. I learned a long time ago to never go against my gut instinct. Like, my senior year when Teetz and I signed up to live in Husker Courtyards; we both paid our deposits and everything and it just didn't feel right to me and something was just WRONG, so I changed my housing and lost the money but at least I also convinced Teetz to move back into Pound with me. He lost his deposit too, but at least we had another good year living together.

That just made me miss Teetz even more, and I didn't know that was possible.

I'm getting screwed over by the government in terms of loans and shit for grad school. Apparently I borrowed the max for undergrad on some loan so I have to get some other loan and whatever. Stupid money.

Celtics won tonight. It's weird cheering for them. I guess I'm not cheering for them so much as I am for KG. Very very very close behind Michael Jordan, perhaps, and likely, even tied with MJ, Kevin Garnett is my favorite basketball player, hands down. I was sad to see him leave the Wolves, but getting a championship is important to him and he deserves to be playing on a team that stands a chance of winning one. I still like the Wolves, but KG is what made the games so much fun. Even after all this time in the league, he still plays with the same intensity now that he did fresh out of high school. I love it. And we would have such beautiful caramel colored babies.

Karaoke tomorrow night! Shelly and I will be singing our signature "Hey Ya!" and a slew of other hits as well. I'll post some video of last week soon,

Damnit

2008-04-22T21:59:00.002-05:00

Clinton won PA.

Argh.

However, though I am leaning toward Obama right now, I'd much rather see Clinton in office than John McCain. Anyone who would support trying to overturn Roe v. Wade is not for me.

Almost Perfect

2008-04-20T19:17:00.002-05:00

So many awesome things have been happening lately, it's nice to have reasons to smile again.

I met with my advisor last Monday and he is AWESOME. He's got his ears pierced like there's no tomorrow, his arms are covered in tats, and he's one of the most brilliant people on the planet. I registered for summer and fall courses, so depending on the job situation in the coming school year, I could potentially be done with grad school next summer. HOTT.

Speaking of next year and the job deal, I have an interview for Park on Wednesday. I can't say too much about this right now because there's a lot going on there with that, so you'll just have to wait, but I'm smiling, so you at least know it's a good thing.

The best part of grad school: FOOTBALL TICKETS!!!!!! I ordered my tickets, woohoo, and am psyched to be there for Pelini's first season as a head coach. My stomach is doing somersaults just thinking about how awesome it will be to have a coach who actually understands Nebraska football. I don't expect to have a national championship in a season, but give Pelini some time and he's going to do great things with the program.

And speaking of football...yesterday was the Spring Game. AWESOME. It was a lot of fun and I am not at all surprised that 80,000+ turned out for it. Afterwards Tim and I went to Buzzard Billy's for dinner, our waiter was super cute...more on that in a couple days, HOPEFULLY. After dinner I drove Tim back to his car and we ended up sitting on the swings at a nearby park for like, an hour and a half. It was just such a nice day and neither of us wanted to go inside, so we just sat around and talked about, quite possibly, everything ever. He is also searching for a new place to live. House and apartment hunting SUCKS.

All in all, things are going well. I finally have all my financial aid shit done, I'll be back in Burnett this summer, I think I found a sweet new apartment ($525 total, utilities and all) and in general, I'm diggin' my life. Jordan is still being a douche, but whatever, I'm over it. At least, I'm over his bullshit and that whole mess. I don't need people in my life dragging me down. I've cut a few people out and it just feels good. I'm sorry to see those friendships end, but if we're not in each other's lives to help one another then what's the point? No use pretending. I miss the way the friendships used to be but hey, people change and you can't dwell on it.

I'm off to the gym to work out and tan. I love being awesome.

Peace.

The South Got Something Right

2008-04-15T17:20:00.003-05:00

While I don't normally find joy in the impending death of my fellow human beings, I whole-heartedly support this.

Don't worry, it's a link to a story on CNN.com about Louisiana and a death row inmate who will be executed for the rape of his 8 year old step-daughter.

You know what I say to that?

GOOD.

My opinion waivers on the death penalty from time to time. It's never going to be proven one way or another whether the death penalty deters crime; let's face it, data can be skewed any way you want it, regardless of what you're talking about. There's the possibility of executing an innocent person while the guilty party goes free. Those are clearly arguments against it. However, pedophiles, child molesters, kiddie rapers, whatever you call them - these people CAN NOT be rehabilitated. I'm obviously not talking about the 18 year old guy that had sex with his 16 year old girlfriend, I think it's ridiculous in those instances where these guys have to labeled as sex offenders for the rest of their lives because of that. I'm talking about people like in the above article. It absolutely disgusts me that anyone could ever have these "urges" and I fully support the death penalty in regards to those heinous crimes.

What A Rush

2008-04-10T22:50:00.002-05:00

I really forgot how much I love working out. It's such a high when I'm done, like I could keep going forever and ever and ever. I love it.

Things I don't love, however, are the kids right now. Obviously I won't go into detail, but between fights, talk of suicide, food fights, and cutting, it's been a crazy month. Hell, it's been a crazy WEEK, which is when most of this stuff actually happened.

My phone hates text messaging right now. It makes me angry.

The claims guy is coming to look at my car tomorrow. His name is Jordan. I immediately did not like him because of that. I will have to work on that.

My knee is killing me.

It's supposed to snow.

I have to work on Saturday. I really have enjoyed the time away and dread going back. I want to quit and never see anyone from work again except Kelly and Shelly. For real. And Kris too, and Matt Allen, because they're my favorites.

Juno is playing at the State Theatre and I want to see it. I may end up going by myself because everyone has to work or has some other bullshit going on. I NEVER go anywhere public like the movies by myself. I guess this is a good time to start.

Hot Guy was at the gym tonight. Hot Hot Hot.

School is stressing me out and I haven't even started yet. Apartment hunting sucks and I hate it. I want the job at Park NOW.

That;s all, I'm sleepy.

Damnit

2008-04-09T22:22:00.004-05:00

So there are these two small dents on my passenger side door. I know, already. I didn't get to take the car home until December 3rd, 2007, and here it is April 9th of 2008 and it's not perfect anymore. They're odd marks, taken individually it looks like A) someone tried to break in, or B) someone dinged it with their own door. But both of them together are just odd. But that's not all I'm pissed about about. Oh no, there's never just one thing.

I called Grandpa when I saw it, because like I really know what to do when stuff like this happens. I don't know whether it happened here or at school and he made some comment about at least letting the administrators know something happened, that way if things happen to other cars in the lot, they can try to piece together who it might be. "Otherwise," he said, "You're just going to keep being a victim."

WHAT.

I hate that word, absolutely HATE it, I abhor it. I am not a fucking victim and I never will be. Saying I'm a victim is giving someone else control and I am not ever going to do that, period. I know he didn't intend it the way I see it and I didn't yell at him, don't worry; okay I got a little upset but I didn't yell or swear or anything like I'm doing now. He changed his wording then to my car being the victim. But that word just pisses me off. I'm not a victim, and I never will be.

P.S. My Tomato Baby turned four yesterday, he's getting so big! Here's a picture of us from Christmas, 2007

The Three Ps: Plastic Surgery, Playboy, and Porn

2008-04-08T23:15:00.002-05:00

I don't consider Playboy to be porn, just an FYI.

Okay, so recently some friends and I have had some interesting discussions about a lot of different things and these are the most interesting. Of course they are, they have to do with sex. Duh. Anyway, I was just thinking about their opinions and my opinions and this is kind of how I feel about each subject; they're not really all connected, kinda, but whatever.

1. Plastic Surgery
Some of you know that someday, I would like to have surgery done. I feel like my body isn't exactly proportionate. I have a smaller chest and a ginormous ass. I feel lopsided. Not like I'm going to fall over backwards because my ass is THAT huge, but I just don't feel quite right. One of my guy friends said I shouldn't because they wouldn't feel real. What the fuck do I care if they don't feel real? I'm not doing this for anyone else, I want to do it for me, so do you honestly think I care if they don't feel real to some guy I probably don't care very much about? On second thought, if he's touching the girls I probably do care about him at least a little. Whatever, that's a whole other story. But then Tobes did this awesome post about what makes someone a feminist and it was amazing as usual. She pointed out that while she didn't think plastic surgery is really a good thing, it doesn't make anyone any less of a feminist for doing so. I agree, I am still a feminist and the reasons I want to do this someday are for me only, so who can say I'm any less of one than anyone who does not have plastic surgery?

2. Playboy
A lot of people, women especially, think that Playboy is degrading to women. I wonder how, exactly? I have always been of the mindset that if you got, flaunt it. If I looked like Kim Kardashian, I'd be naked in a heartbeat posing for the magazine. It's not as though women are duped into posing, they know exactly what will be expected, it's Playboy for cryin' out loud. You really think any women go to the photo shoot expecting to keep their clothes on? Like I said, if you got it, you might as well show it off.

3. Porn
Big effing deal. As long as it's between two (or more, depending on your fetish I guess) consenting adults, what is the big deal? Obviously pornography that involves minors or violence against either men or women is disgusting and that's not even what I'm talking about. Instead, just the regular old run of the mill porn. Is it degrading to women? Maybe, but if so, how, exactly? Maybe most peoples' sex lives are not as interesting of some pornos I'm guessing, but don't you think that more than a few people have tried what they've seen on video behind closed doors? Probably so. It's just sex, and I think people need to relax a little bit. And kind of like with the Playboy thing, if you like to bang and you're comfortable enough with your body to be naked on screen for thousands of horny teenage boys to secretly download, then go for it. Personally, I'd just stick to Playboy, thanks, but hey, that's just me.

Anyway, that's all, don't know why I felt the need to write two posts so close together so suddenly, but I did, so whatever. Maybe I'm making up for my lack of posting recently.

Night, kids.

No More!

2008-04-08T22:39:00.002-05:00

Back in mid January of January I signed up at Gold's; Tom and Amanda had been talking about it, Tom just joined because they had a good deal, so I did too. Things were going along just fine for, oh, about a week or so and then boom, the big trauma (NOT DRAMA) and working out was put on the back burner for a while. THEN, after all that I didn't exactly feel like working out for a while, not to mention the doctor said I couldn't anyway for at least a week and a half. But when I could again, I just didn't. TWO MONTHS went by and my fat ass just sat around, letting Gold's Gym take my money and me getting nothing in return.

No more.

The horrifying experience of seeing my hips and thighs in the full length mirror after I got out of the shower did the trick, not to mention the love handles and insane amount of belly fat. Gross, I know. I'm not exaggerating, I wish I were. So Sunday I started working out again. Serious working out, not just walking for 15 minutes on a treadmill and calling it good. I used to be so serious about this, I was never thin but I was at least thinner - we all know this ass of mine is not going anywhere no matter how hard I try. Kelly goes too, so it's helpful to have someone who is counting on me. Plus, she is already like 50 pounds less than me, so that helps too. Granted, she's shorter, but you don't see super models walking around at my weight, do you? I know even without her going I would anyway at this point though, because all I keep seeing is that fucking cellulite when I close my eyes. I know, right. Gross.

Exactly. Which is why I'm finally working out again, and counting calories too. That part is always a pain but kind of necessary because do you know how easy it is to just consume and consume and not realize how many you're actually eating? Ridiculous. And what's the point of working out if I'm just going to put back into my body twice as many as I just burned? No thanks. I've done this before and I don't know how I let myself balloon back up, but it stops now

Sorry, but I'd rather die young and thin than fat and old. At least my outside will be pretty. Well, it is already, but it will be prettier than before.

It's Like I'm Eight Years Old Again....

2008-04-02T19:30:00.002-05:00

In the words of Perez Hilton...DAYUM!

I can't wait! Momma and I are DEFINITELY getting tickets to the show if they go on tour.

I love Joey. Still. 17 years later. *Sigh*

Sad and Lame

2008-03-27T15:11:00.004-05:00

So yesterday morning I was up at some ungodly hour because I couldn't sleep. Okay, maybe 9 isn't ungodly, but whatever. I'm not even sure which morning news show it was, but a story came up entitled, "Cheerleader Dies After Breast Surgery". So many things irritate me about this, I don't even know where to begin.

1. Of course we only care about her because she is a cheerleader. Cheerleader = cute, fun, thin, etc etc etc. We wouldn't be interested in some fat old housewife dying during breast surgery because what is she doing getting any surgery done? She's fat and old, she doesn't need a boob job.

2. Breast surgery is very vague. Were they being reduced, enlarged, what? Does it really matter? Given our sex-saturated culture, they want us to assume that she was getting implants. And since she's a cheerleader she's probably making 'em bigger anyway, so she can fill out her uniform better and add that extra pep to the routine.

Come to find out, what she died of had nothing to do with the surgery itself or complications from that, but from the anesthesia. The young woman, Stephanie Kuleba, died of malignant hyperthermia. But of course a headline having to do with that wouldn't be interesting. Anything about cheerleaders and breasts grabs attention right away, but otherwise people wouldn't care. What is also kind of irritating about how this was presented is that this can happen during any kind of surgery or procedure, since the anesthesia is the cause. One of the doctors they interviewed on the show talked about how he'd only seen it once while he was in surgery and it was on a male who was having nasal surgery or something.

I think my point is being lost. It's a sad story about a girl who was having what seems to be a legit surgery to correct something she wasn't happy with and died from an extremely rare condition that no one knew she had and most don't know it occurs. But the way it was presented was kind of ridiculous and that in itself is also sad. There's more info in the article here.

WARNING: Serious Venting Ahead

2008-03-24T22:42:00.002-05:00

If you've ever been privy to one of my venting sessions before - either in person or in writing - then by all means continue reading. If not, then you might just want to hang back and wait for the next fluff post about ANTM or Guitar Hero.

*****

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.

I fucking hate you. I hate that you're fine, despite you saying you're not. I hate that I'm not okay yet. I hate that I randomly start crying while doing the most meaningless things. I hate that you sat in the fucking lobby and did your God damn physics homework while I had to be in that tiny room with a stranger holding my hands while I bawled my fucking eyes out and begged her to make it stop. I hate everything about you. I hate that the only nice thing you've ever done for me is open the fucking car door afterward. How could you even ask me how I was feeling? How the fuck did you think I was doing? You're smarter than that, so fucking act like it. I hate that you know exactly what you're supposed to say, but it doesn't really matter because there has never been a single moment of follow through since. I hate that you come out fine either way, because one way or another this was not going to effect the rest of your life. I hate that I believed you when you said you'd be there no matter what I decided. I hate that you're a coward and a liar. I hate that you try to act like school was always more important. Sorry to say, but in this case it wasn't. I hate that no matter what, you get to go on like nothing ever happened and no one will ever know. Well I've got some news for you: people know. People know, because you weren't there when I needed to talk about everything that was going on inside my head. People we both are acquainted with. If you don't like it, then too fucking bad. Maybe you should have been a man in the first place and followed through on your word.

You Wanna Be On Top?

2008-03-24T11:28:00.002-05:00

I love America's Next Top Model.

That's all.

Might As Well Have Changed His Name to Douche Bag

2008-03-23T18:02:00.002-05:00

I was watching CNN and they ran a piece about a man from Idaho who legally changed his name to 'Pro Life' and plans on running for the Senate every two years for the rest of his life. Throughout the story he made asinine comments like, "People can laugh at my name all they want as long as they're not killing their babies."

I wanted to punch the television.

A fetus is not a living thing. You can not kill something that is not alive, that depends on something else to even survive in the first place. An embryo is a cluster of cells that has the potential to become a human being, but has not yet become one.

Check out this article for more info on Pro Life.

I found a bumper sticker on Facebook that says, "77% of abortion leaders are men. 100% of them will never be pregnant." Of course I had to have it. My opinion on this topic will never change, you can call me a murderer, or any other horrible name you can think of. The fact of the matter is, deciding to have an abortion is one of the most difficult decisions a woman will make in her life. For some, this is their only option. It's not something that is taken lightly, or done on a whim one day. It's a decision that is come to after a lot of tears, a lot of talking, and the realization that at this point in your life, having a baby is not feasible. Then to have someone like this trying to make you feel even worse about your decision than you probably already do, it is disgusting.

I've always said I would never live in a country where abortion was illegal. My way of thinking is, while I never thought it would be something that I could personally go through with, that decision was not up to anyone but the woman in said situation. No government should ever have the right or the power to tell it's citizens what they can and can not do with their bodies. Ever. There is nothing anyone can say to change that. The majority of women who have abortions do not use it as a form of birth control and anyone who makes that argument is completely lacking in intelligence. It is a incredibly painful procedure, followed by painful days and weeks, and no one would endure that constantly as birth control. The women I know who have had this done did not make the decision lightly, but did it because they had to. Whether it was for health reasons, because they were single, were the victim of rape, or any other reason, they did it because they HAD TO.

Do not ever tell me that women who choose to have abortions are selfish and shouldn't have had sex in the first place if they didn't want to deal with the consequences of their actions. You can do everything you're supposed to do in order to not get pregnant, but sometimes it's not enough. To expect people to just never have sex is unrealistic, despite all the Conservative Christians telling us that we're going to Hell because we're having sex before we're married. Sorry, that's just not the case. People make mistakes, it happens. It's not the job of anyone in this life to judge them for it. Whatever might exist beyond this life, that's when Judgement will come, so Pro Life and his supporters can keep all their opinions to themselves.

And by the way, the correct term is 'Anti-Abortion'. I'm assuming everyone alive on this planet is pro-life, seeing as how anyone living is probably in favor of it. At least make some sense instead of looking like a total ass hat.

Finally, Something Good!

2008-03-13T20:33:00.002-05:00

Burnett, here I come!

Now that I am once again a student at UNL, I get to work there again! Yay! I'm meeting with Pat tomorrow! It won't be until the summer that I start at all, and it won't be full time until the fall, but yay!!!!! It's nice to have good news for a change.

Relief

2008-03-07T05:35:00.003-06:00

After last night, I have come to the conclusion that I need to quit Office Depot. I'm fed up with the douchebaggery. Sucks for you when not only me, but other cashiers quit as well, and then you're stuck with no one, huh? However, I do feel bad at least a little bit because I really like Ron and Ken and I don't want them to get screwed over, but I'm sure they can just have some of the floor associates cashier instead, and everything will work out fine.

Brick

2008-03-05T22:13:00.003-06:00

6 am, day after Christmas
I throw some clothes on in the dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping
I am numb

Up the stairs to her apartment
She is balled up on the couch
Her mom and dad went down to Charlotte
They're not home to find us out
And we drive

Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
Then I walk down to buy her flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Then she ever has before

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son it's time to tell the truth
She broke down and I broke down
Cause I was tired of lying

Driving back to her apartment
For the moment we're alone
She's alone
I'm alone
Now I know it

PostSecret

2008-02-23T22:32:00.003-06:00

This is from PostSecret this past Sunday. It's not mine that I sent in, but it became mine the moment I read it. He's living with it much better than I am.

What Happens Next?

2008-02-17T21:22:00.002-06:00

I don't know what made me think of it, or why I'm even posting. I don't really feel like posting. I don't really feel like doing anything. But here it is:

"Bottom line is, even if you see 'em coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So what are we, helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come. You can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are..." - Whistler (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)

Right now, I just don't know what my 'afterwards' holds. It's scary. What's scarier is that I don't really think I care.

Grad School!

2008-02-09T09:44:00.001-06:00

I got in! I'm going to grad school!

What The Fuck, Bobby Knight??!!

2008-02-05T09:15:00.000-06:00

He RETIRED! Four fucking days before he was supposed to come to Lincoln to coach Tech against Nebraska, he RETIRED! He is the reason I get my Grandma basketball tickets for Christmas and now he's not even going to be there! I'm fucking pissed, there's no point in going to the game now because Nebraska SUCKS. This really blows.

Oh, Justin

2008-01-31T10:39:00.000-06:00

He's so cute. I love him. And his Pepsi commercial for the Superbowl is soooo cute.

YES!!!!!!

2008-01-29T00:11:00.000-06:00

Please oh please oh please....

PLEASE??!!

PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you Joey!

PLEASE OH PLEASE LET IT HAPPEN!!!!!!!

2008-01-28T12:22:00.000-06:00

Please oh please oh please oh please....

I wish...

It would be wonderful and glorious and I would buy tickets in a heartbeat!

What the Hell, Kenickie

2008-01-28T11:32:00.000-06:00

I can not help but watch Celebrity Rehab. I can't, it's just too addicting. Maybe not the correct choice of words, but hey, at least I'm not snorting things through my nose. Anyway, seriously, first of all none of these people are celebrities. Real celebs wouldn't be on the show because they know they'd never work again. And yet I watch. I haven't seen all of the episodes, and I haven't seen them in order, but the one I caught last night was when the UFC fighter, Rico-something, joined the cast. DOUCHEBAG ALERT. Big time. He told this story about how he rear-ended an 18 wheeler and he thought his girlfriend was dead, but he pulled her out of the car and put her in the driver's seat so it looked like she'd been the one to crash the vehicle. It amused his greatly to tell this story, and he thought it was no big deal, justifying it by saying he already had a DUI and some warrants and stuff. What a fucking loser.

And don't even get me started on Jeff Conway. I love Grease, it is one of my favorite movies of all time. And to see one of my favorite characters reduced to this is sad. He can barely get out of his wheelchair half the time, and just screams for minutes on end because he is in pain from withdrawal. What a horrible way to be dying.

All in all, none of these people are that famous, or interesting, so I'm not sure why I watch the show. But still, I do. Bad "reality" programming is my vice I guess.

Well Said...Surprisingly

2008-01-25T01:00:00.000-06:00

Of all people, this editorial comes from Star Jones, but the message is very clear, and she's completely right. Whether Heath Ledger's death was accidental, or suicide, it doesn't matter right now. Let his family grieve in peace, and back the fuck off.

Death Comes in Threes

2008-01-22T16:45:00.001-06:00

So....who's next?

I know it's kind of morbid, but it's true...

First Brad Renfro died of an apparent drug-overdose almost a week ago. The name might not mean a lot to some people, because a lot of people don't remember him but as a kid. He played in The Client, Tom and Huck, Sleepers, Apt Pupil, and Deuces Wild. He's done other stuff as well in there but nothing really note-worthy; a big contribution to his rapid decline of roles was his drug problem. Sleepers was by far the best movie he'd been in, at least in my opinion, though Apt Pupil is a very close second.

Then today, I woke up from a ridiculously long but amazing nap to this message from Tobes:

Emily says:
HOLY CRAP! Did you see that Heath ledger died?

No way, not Heath Ledger. My line of thinking involving this had less to do with, "OMG-I-am-so-in-love-with-him-and-he-is-my-favorite-actor-in-the-world-how-can-this-be-happening", but more so, "How and why did this happen?" Here you have an actor with a very different life than the one Brad had previously been leading. Heath is one of the most well-known actors in the world, a constant stream of hit movies, and a very young daughter who most likely will not remember her father. Now, Perez's post about this is a little misleading, because they simply state that pills were found near Heath's body. Every other account I have read so far have listed the pills as over the counter sleep meds. Still, it would be considered a drug overdose if it is ruled that is how he died, but let's at least keep our facts straight.

So...

*****
Update:
When I was posting the link for Heath, the video Perez posted had not yet been put up, but now it's there and yeah, Heath is definitely on something. So sad.

Now I have to go watch 10 Things I Hate About You.

35 Years Ago Today...

2008-01-22T11:13:00.000-06:00

The decision was delivered on Roe vs. Wade, making abortion legal in the United States. Let's just hope the decision will continue to stand for another 35 years and far beyond that.

Abortion Kills Children

2008-01-21T12:50:00.000-06:00

Um.

I had lunch today at Lazzari's with Paul and as we were leaving, there were two people standing outside Highnooner's, the man was holding a sign that stated that incorrect fact titling my post, and the woman was holding what I can only assume was some kind of petition. In big bold letters on the back of the petition was something about PRO LIFE and it was all I could do to not get into a confrontation with these people. I could literally feel my face turning red from being angry about this. I was irritated the moment I saw the sign, because the whole time I'm thinking, 'No, abortion removes cell clusters that could potentially become a human being.' Key word - potentially. Paul and I just keep walking, I don't look at these people, I don't make eye contact, nothing. The woman cheerfully asks, "Are either of you by chance pro-life?" I continued looking straight ahead and said, "Nope" and kept right on going. There were so many things I could have said. I could have told them, "Anti-abortion would be the correct term, because you'd be hard-pressed to find someone who is against life." I could have told them I was pro choice because no but me has the right to decide anything about my body, I could go on and on. Instead, I did the mature thing, did not get involved in a shouting match on O street, and I walked away. I think I might be growing up. But people like this still make me sick.

In a related note, check out this review of of 'Unborn in the USA' that Emily wrote. She warned me ahead of time that the documentary would piss me off, but that I should still see it. I plan on doing so very shortly and encourage everyone else who reads this to do the same.

Thus Concludes the Birthday Festivities

2008-01-20T12:47:00.000-06:00

So my birthday celebration pretty much spanned five days...

Technically my birthday celebration actually started on Wednesday. It was kind of impromptu, but fun. JohnRoss and I grabbed some dinner, because he was flying to New York the next day, MY BIRTHDAY, because of choir. But I forgive him because he is my brother and I love him. All I asked is that he find me a cool shot glass. He told me he'd bring me a whole set of the, ha ha.

Then on Thursday at work I'm there for about 10 minutes and this delivery guy comes in with a HUGE bouquet of roses. 25 to be exact. And cupcakes with '25' on them in purple. My mom is AMAZING. I was not expecting that at all. I called her right away and she said she'd wanted to surprise me and come down but it just didn't work out because of her job. The flowers were a great sub but I would much rather she been here. Although, she and Grandma and Grandpa will be here the weekend of the 9th to see the Nebraska/Texas Tech game. And of course we will go to Red Lobster and it will be delicious. Too bad Teetz isn't here, it just won't be quite the same.

After work Shelly and I were planning on just going to Sandy's to have a pitcher of Elk Creek. It wasn't going to be anything crazy because there was work the next day. We ended up going to Chaser's instead because Jake was working, and that one or two drinks I was planning on turned into more and more and more. Jake was making drinks left and right for us, and not mixing them with anything, these were pure alcohol. Chaser's used to be Cliff's, and if you know anything about the Kamikazes at Cliff's...damn. That's all I need to say. Plus there were random shots of Absolut Kurrant (UGH!) and what did me in at the very end of the night was the Long Island. Thanks Jake. Friday I slept until almost 3 PM. And I had to work at 5. It was interesting.

Friday was very low-key and I did not really do much that day for my birthday, just hung out. I still needed to recover from Thursday.

Saturday was awesome. I was scheduled to work 4-8:30 but Tom was cool and let me go at 7:45, after he'd spent the whole night telling me we were going to be there late. I was ecstatic. So I went home to get ready, we went out, it was a lot of fun and I got to see so many friends who I hadn't seen in a while. Ben and Mandy were back from Antigua and incredibly tan and it made me jealous, but her ring is gorgeous. Knappster and Michelle came, Swid, Pam and Kenny, Kelsey and his friend Matt, Shelly, Josh, just lots of people. Eventually we went to Iggy's and gained and lost some people, Tom finally showed up near the end, but of course more to see Ben and Mandy, go figure. Iggys' actually wasn't so bad that night, I was surprised. Less douchebaggery than in a while. I did get in an argument with some girl though who knew Shelly and Josh (she was sitting at the table behind us.) I'd said 'Fuck off' to someone and she thought I was talking to her so she goes, "Don't tell me to fuck off, it's my birthday." I told her it was my birthday too and to fuck off because I wasn't even talking to her. She kept trying to argue with me about it and finally I just turned back to me table and laughed. That made her mad and she kept trying to provoke me but you know what, I was having way too much fun to deal with that retard. We left before closing to get to Lazari's in time to beat the crowd and I had delicious pizza that I haven't had in a long time. It made me miss Teetz even more because the last time I was there was with him and Brian and some randoms. Come to think of it, that was the night Brian was being a pissy little baby and when I asked him what was wrong he responded with the dumbest statement ever, "If Teetz was straight you two would be dating." THAT was entertaining.

Anyway.

The birthday festivities will conclude tonight when Tim and I go out for dinner at Buzzard Billy's. I haven't seen him in a while and he was watching fights last night and it didn't get done until it was hardly worth it to even come downtown. So, we will have dinner instead. Yay.

The end.

P.S. All pictures are on Facebook in the album aptly titled, 'How a Princess Celebrates Her 25th Birthday'. Go look and leave comments. I love comments.

Peace out, bitches.

SexyBack

2008-01-14T00:13:00.000-06:00

I'm watching the JT dvd again live from MSG. Reliving the most glorious night of my life. The man is a god. Beautiful, talented, amazing, I could go on but I won't. I wish it was a year ago at this time, when Tom and I were getting tickets to the show. Or better yet, it would be March again and I would be standing there singing along to every song and screaming my ass off every time he came to our side of the stage. *Sigh*

I got a new phone and it is PINK. I LOVE it. It has a camera, which I don't care about much, but it ended up being free because I'm awesome at getting things that I want at little to no cost for me. I got my flirt back apparently. Go me.

I have to address the mess that it Britney Spears, I can't help it. Maybe it's because I am watching the JT dvd. He was at some club in LA a couple nights ago, surrounded my paparazzi and some dude was yelling at him to 'Save Britney'. Fucking serious? That bitch is long gone and there's no one to blame but herself and the people who took advantage of her fame. K-Fed is by no means a saint, and he's contributed to much of her insanity by being the free-loading douchebag he is. It's just such a trainwreck, I still can not stop reading Perez's site for more of her crazy antics. It's almost tragic really. She was by no means a great singer, but at the height of her popularity, she was without a doubt an amazing performer; you have to at least give her that. It's unfortunate that. at what, 25, her career is already over. Some might disagree but do you really think she can recover from this? She held one of her kids hostage for three hours, she drives aimlessly around LA, fails to show up at deposition after deposition, she holes up in hotels with some creepy dude who is just another hanger-on, and she has taken a liking to speaking with a British accent. Nuts.

No other big news. Just working. Ken came to town last night since he, big surprise, is missing another one of my birthdays. Can you believe I'm going to be TWENTY FIVE??!! It's ridiculous. I don't feel 25. That's a good thing.

Days til the big 2-5: THREE!!

Days til the celebration: FIVE!!

It's Good to be "Home"

2008-01-09T21:45:00.000-06:00

Most of you know that last year I absolutely fell in love with Park and loved teaching there. I missed it a lot while I spent the last semester at Huntington and last night I got a call that I was requested at Park today, woohoo! I subbed for Knapp and it just felt right being there. I liked Huntington and I loved the kids I worked with, but I did not like some of the staff. They were very cliquey and just not very nice. I never once felt like a part of the 4th grade team despite the fact I was there from nearly the beginning of the school year. I loved the third grade team and always felt like a part of their group, but never 4th grade, where I actually was listed as being on that team. At Park, it's completely different, and from the moment I got there I knew that not a whole lot had changed and I was still part of the Burgundy Team, even though it was my first day subbing in months, and I hadn't started my long-term yet. I just love that whole environment, I like the teachers there, and the kids are good too. It's a very different group this year, as I expected. They're a lot less mature than the previous class, and a lot more needy, which is odd. But it'll work and I am looking forward to being back there full time again.

In other news, don't you just hate when timing is everything? It's so irritating. I know that some people are just not meant to be together for whatever reason for whatever amount of time, but if we could have just been in sync for five seconds, things could have worked out really well. But it's still comforting knowing that he likes my caboose. I happen to like it a lot too so we have that in common. Now if only we could take time to figure out what else we have in common, which so far includes a love of JT (but in different ways) and Mountain Dew. *Sigh*

Sarah's Official Birthday Countdown: SEVEN DAYS!
(remember kids, I never count the day I am posting, and I don't count the day itself, so that's how it works out to seven)

Sarah's Birthday Bash: NINE DAYS!

New Year, New Me

2008-01-02T09:53:00.000-06:00

This is the first year I have seriously made resolutions that I want to keep. I always joke about them and make stupid ones that I know I won't keep because I didn't take them seriously to begin with, but here we go...

1. Be nicer to customers

This is going to be tough because Office Depot customers are idiots. But that's not a good attitude to have and neither is mine in general toward that store. I am going to be nicer and more patient with them, and basically, hopefully, this will help me be nicer and more patient all around. This is going to be a toughie.

2. No more ******.

I couldn't bring myself to type his name because he pisses me off so much sometimes, it's not even funny. It was a stupid six months that is over now. It's amazing how I suddenly see that I was in a similar spot LAST year around this time, only that relationship type thing didn't end because I wanted it to, I did not have a say in that one. But that's how this one is ending because it's not healthy and I want it to be over. I'm done with not having emotions just because bad things happen to people who matter to me. And this means I am not allowed to drunk text him on the weekends. IT'S OVER!

3. Run at least 4 times a week.

This one should be the easiest of the three to keep. I was so disgusted with how fat I was the other day, that no more. Hopefully in a couple weeks, maybe a couple months, all the new clothes I bought won't fit because they'll be too big. I've done it before, I can do it again.

****AMENDMENT****
I was back at work one day and already yelled at Tom, so...

4. Be nicer to Tom
Even though he likes to say things like, "Your hair looks dirty" or play Hinder's "Lips of an Angel" while I am on break just to piss me off, I should be calm when talking to him instead of yelling when he says things that irritate me.

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****AMENDMENT****

5. Get Better, Mentally and Emotionally
I spent a lot of the last year being angry. Angrier than I have been in a long time. I can't do that anymore because it is not healthy and I have to let it go. I have to work on not being so angry at everyone around me and everything that happens because I can't control any of that, I can only control me. I just have to get that control back again.

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In other news, I got my plates for my car today, as well as a Nebraska license. How gross is that, I'm actually a resident of this stupid, backward, racist, homophobic, conservative state. Yuck.

AMAZING!

2008-01-01T20:36:00.000-06:00

New Year's was awesome. It was pretty much the best New Year's in a long time. It is rivaled only by the last New Year's party we had at the old apartment before Adam left for Iraq. It was phenomenal. That's the only way I can describe it. The pictures are on Facebook. Check 'em out.

Really? NO WAY!

2007-12-27T18:26:00.000-06:00

I saw a commercial for Lunesta today, which is a sleeping pill. One of the side effects is drowsiness. Who woulda thought.

Sad Day

2007-12-27T17:04:00.000-06:00

Today the former Prime Minister of Pakistan, Benazir Bhutto, was assassinated. CNN's done a lot of coverage on it so far and I've been watching Wolf Blitzer a lot of the afternoon. It's such a tragic event when someone who is trying to do such good for her country is murdered by extremists...or her own government as many suggest, which some view as one in the same thing...when all these changes can bring is good for the country.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/WORLD/asiapcf/12/27/pakistan.bhutto/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

http://www.cnn.com/2007/WORLD/asiapcf/12/27/bhutto.photographer/index.html

Call Me A Cynic, But...

2007-12-20T20:03:00.000-06:00

I was leaving Wal-Greens tonight after getting stuff for my kiddos for the last day of school tomorrow and as I got to my car I was approached by this guy who'd just crossed 27th street and was heading toward the store. He looks upset, tells me this story about how he and his wife just moved here from Iowa...he showed me his driver's license...they have no money, and that they didn't even have a Christmas tree and they didn't have money for gifts for their four kids or even a turkey or anything for Christmas dinner. He says he's been to churches and talked to pastors and has been crying all day about it and his wife has too. So here's when he asks me for money. He says the usual stuff, he knows I'm probably not rich, that he doesn't usually do this, but he wants his kids to have a good Christmas, etc. The teacher in me is thinking about these poor kids who won't have a good Christmas because their family doesn't have any money. The realist in me is thinking that this guy is probably bullshitting me and needs the money for something a little less honest. Maybe not. Who knows. Either way, I gave him $20. Maybe I shouldn't have, but who knows, maybe he was telling me the truth. I'd like to think so, but I'm not counting on it..

AGAIN

2007-12-11T22:24:00.000-06:00

I went into work tonight because Ken had some stuff for me to do and that creepy guy came in AGAIN! He was watching me the whole time and as soon as I saw him I went and found Ken, I stayed in technology, so the guy walks out of line and kind of starts walking toward me and I stayed by Ken most of the time. After the guy finally checked out Ken went over and talked to him. I don't really want to post all of what Ken said to him, but when Ken first started talking to him he was like, "I only asked her out once" which means if this continues, Ken has the words straight from the guy's mouth. But he can't keep bothering me because if he does, Ken will call the police. It makes me feel a little better, and I'm really glad Ken did that but some of my other managers aren't nearly as proactive about taking care of their employees so I don't really have faith in anyone else except Ron, who was also there tonight. This guy seriously weirds me out, the way he just stares at me is fucking scary as hell. And he always manages to come in when I'm working, so far no one can really remember seeing him any other time. Now that doesn't mean he's never come in when I've been off, but it is just a little odd. Everyone knows who he is by now, since this is the third time in the last month or so that he's been in and it's been obvious that he's been watching me. Fucking weird.

SNOW DAY!

2007-12-11T12:35:00.001-06:00

No school today, woohoo. I know I will completely waste the day doing nothing when I should be cleaning my room, but it's a freaking Snow Day. I figured I'd work on my music scrapbook some more, get things written up and typed so I can one day actually start making the pages.

He's Baaaaaack

2007-12-09T21:04:00.000-06:00

My stalker was back today and he seriously creeps me the fuck out. I was over in the copy center laminating some stuff and over the headset Zac says, "Hey Sarah, I don't want to scare you or anything but your stalker is here." I look up to see where he is, and he's in line at the registers, staring at me. When he sees me look up at him, he gets out of line and starts walking toward me. I headed straight for the middle of technology where Tom, Jordan, Kris, and Matt were all standing, and stood there for a couple seconds and the guy was standing nearby in business machines so Tom told me to just go sit in Ron's office until he left. It was very creepy, there are few people in this world who can truly make me uncomfortable, and this guy is one. Zac said he stayed in business machines for a little bit but didn't wait around long once I was off the floor. I really don't like this. I wish Ken had been working today, he and Tom were the MODs last time the guy came in and Ken was very adamant about asking the guy to leave the store next time he saw him. I do not appreciate being stalked. And true, he doesn't know anything about me except my name is Sarah and I work at Office Depot, and I'd like to keep it that way.

What A Year

2007-12-09T20:34:00.000-06:00

It's been a year, hard to believe. Monday was rough. I had a healthy Jack and Cherry Pepsi and drank my toast - yes, I'm aware that Jack and Coke is my drink, but that Cherry Pepsi had special meaning. Here's a few quotes that still make me smile...

Evan: Geez, alki...
Tim: Sarah, let's think about this. Now, when Evan Hoffmann calls you an alcoholic, you know there's a problem
Brett: That is true. However, I do seem to recall a conversation between a pot and a kettle.

Me: Seriously, I don't know what my deal is lately with skinny white boys
Brett: Well I dunno, but humping my roommate and wanting to bang JT are not the same thing

Me: Pleeeease can I have some sunflower seeds?
Brett: What is she bitching about?
Evan: She wants my seeds
Brett: You know, that one is way too easy, I'm not even going to bother

I would eat babies if it was legal - Evan

Me: No fair, you guys all have roles, I want one too!
Brett: Okay, you can fuck the actor. Oh, wait...

Pants. - Evan

Don't worry 'bout it - Evan

Every morning I will wake up in anticipation: Is today the day Sarah will fuck me in the ear? - Tim

Good memories.

More Things That Irritate Me

2007-12-06T23:52:00.000-06:00

SNOW. I can not show off my new car if it is covered in snow. Stupid Mother Nature, what a bitch.

I underatand that what happened in Omaha yesterday is terrible. For those of you who live under a rock, this guy went into one of the malls in Omaha and killed 8 people before killing himself. My problem with the reaction however, is that the hundreds of thousands of deaths in Darfur, Iraq, etc. are simply shrugged off, as though it's okay that murder occurs elsewhere, as long as it's not in in our country. Murder is something we should never get used to hearing about, no matter how big or small the number of victims.

Last, but certinaly not least, not by a long shot...

Sorry Gays, apparently when it comes to hate crimes, you still don't matter. WHAT THE FUCK?! How can homosexuals still NOT be protected?! It's 2007! I am not in favor of this bill being tied to anything involving the war and defense spending, it needs to be it's own bill. My point moreso is just that fact that they are not protected at all in terms of hate crimes. It baffles me. If you're not shocked by the fact that homosexuals are still not protected under hate crime laws, then you're probably someone I don't want to know anyway.

Okay, bedtime. Maybe we won't get any more snow and I can post pictures of my new baby. I love her, but she still does not have a name.

The Most Important Day of My Life

2007-12-03T22:02:00.000-06:00

...so far.

It's official. You'll see what I mean, tomorrow.

Isn't the suspense just exquisite?

A Lil' of This, A Lil' of That

2007-12-03T00:01:00.000-06:00

I was at the dealership for 3 hours tonight. Hopefully I will have the car within the next 24 hours. Cross your fingers.

GO BIG RED! I found this particularly true: "We need a head coach with strong defensive credentials and great leadership," Osborne said. "We were also looking for someone who can inspire confidence and get players to play with great effort...And, of course, we also wanted our new head coach to understand our traditions, including the importance of our walk-on program and the importance of football in this state."

Basically, FUCK YOU CALLAHAN. Some might question my hostility towards our douchebag of a former coach, but here's what really gets me about him. When, after a year in the state, you're asked what you like best about it and you say your office, that makes you a douchebag. Not to mention THIS SHIT. MORON. You never should have been the coach here and you and your shitty West Coast bullshit shit-tastic worthless offense can go back to the NFL where you can suck some more ass. I fucking hate him and Steve Pederson. DOUCHEBAGS.

I had a ridiculously good time this weekend. It reminded me of the days when Shelly and I first started hanging out back in January of this year, when we were consistently shit-faced at least four time a week for several months on end. This whole weekend, Friday, Saturday, and tonight, was spent at Bricktop. And I have to be to work at 7:30 tomorrow. To teach the children. Good thing we only had a couple J2s tonight.

My birthday is going to be SICK. I am so excited, I can not wait. I just hope the stupid boy is there and doesn't ruin it by being a douchebag. He just needs to stand there and smile and be pretty. Kelsey better not forget my diamond stud earrings. I'm sure he's already found a way to screw it up and forget. Good thing I can buy them myself.

This guy came into work the other night and was so disgustingly hairy, it was crazy. In Britty's words, "When I say hairy, I mean like a rug." It was gross. I wanted to wax him. He had on a t-shirt that was pretty think and you could see his hair. It wasn't even patchy, he looked like a fucking bear. And it was sticking up out of his shirt. I wanted to vomit.

Tomorrow I am hopefully getting the car. Like I said, cross your fingers. I haven't cared enough to want anything this badly in a long time. Except of course for the stupid boy. But that's been going on for months now and there's no end in sight to the madness. If I could have him and the car, I'd be content. At least until I got bored with him. But I'd never get bored with that car, and we all know I wouldn't really get bored with him either.

Bedtime.

Mother Nature is a BITCH

2007-11-30T15:44:00.000-06:00

That's all.

I think it'll be a good weekend for Bridezillas and some stroganoff.

Woohoo...

2007-11-29T22:46:00.000-06:00

...even if it's just a little while.

I wish we could just take 'interim' out of his new title.

Can't we just have both?

Updating - Literally

2007-11-27T21:53:00.001-06:00

I posted some new links. One I highly recommend is the 'Overheard In New York" which I stole from Emily. I have been reading it for a while and don't know why I didn't post it sooner. It's hilarious, I love it.

I drove a new car tonight, the car I love and want to buy buy buy. If I buy it before December 3rd I get extra rebates and a $500 gift card. Do you know how many shoes I could buy with $500? So many shoes. So many shoes. But anyway, back to the car since Grandpa won't give in and buy my Escalade now even though I BEGGED. It's a 2008 Chevy Aveo in icelandic blue and I LOVE IT. LOVE IT.

I also apparently like repeating myself now. Weird.

Think Before You Type, Moron

2007-11-26T16:07:00.000-06:00

I was reading CNN.com today and saw an article about how they re-arrested three men in the disappearance/murder of Natalee Holloway. For those of you living under rocks, Natalee is the chick from Alabama who has been missing since 2005 when she and her classmates took a class trip to Aruba. I was reading some of the comments about the case and the opinions people had and I was baffled by the one the read something to the effect of "It was a gang-rape that went wrong and something bad happened" or something similar. WHAT? Wouldn't the rape itself be what was wrong in the first place? Use some common sense here people.

Aside from that irritating comment, I am completely uninterested in this case. It might sound cold, but tell me please why whenever a young woman is missing, there are only ridiculous amounts of coverage on the story if she is white? It's a shame. There are also several comments about this exact topic in the comment thread and that pissed people off, saying it wasn't about race. Like hell it's not. I myself am white, yet intelligent enough to see in the media this bias towards reporting on only upper middle class white girls. The bias may not be intentional, but it's there. She's been missing for two years, and still there is coverage on it. I'm not saying we shouldn't care what happened to this young woman, but we should care about what happened to the hundreds of thousands of missing young men and woman, regardless of race.

Ding, Dong, the Witch is Dead

2007-11-24T19:23:00.000-06:00

Beautiful

Very Beautiful

Just Wondering...

2007-11-21T12:22:00.000-06:00

Do you know how big of a douchebag you are? If not, let me be the first to tell you just how much you suck. Have a great day :)

This snow thing is NOT cool. We're leaving for the concert in about an hour and a half, and I am sooooooo psyched but I am appalled by Mother Nature and her complete disregard for my happiness and is allowing this shit to continue to fall from the sky. I'm disgruntled. But Pete Wentz is hot. It balances out, sort of.

I just spent a lot of money shopping to find something to wear tonight and I loved everything in the store but when I try it on at home I am fat and everything looks stupid. GRR. But I got a lot of new clothes and jewelry that I really didn't need but I hadn't been shopping for a really long time. In fact, the last time I shopped for anything at all that didn't involve groceries at Wal-Mart was to find funeral clothes. I guess I was due.

Kauffman made an appearance on PostSecret this week, I wasn't surprised to see something like that, the place can be hell sometimes and I know this even though I didn't technically live there. It was just kind of like, wow, something familiar to me...that part was more the shock than anything else. Here's the secret that was posted, but go look at the whole site, there were some really good ones this week.

The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

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From the end of October to the beginning of April, I am most happy. College basketball has started and for the roughly the next six months, Saturdays, Sundays, and Tuesdays will be devoted to my one true love - Duke Blue Devil basketball. I love college football and all, and it's definitely one of my favorite sports, but basketball has always been IT. I love it more than anything, I played for such a long time and I really miss it, but I love watching it. And this season Nebraska will play Texas Tech here so I will get tickets for Grandma again. I've done it the last few season whenever Tech has been here, because I adore Bobby Knight and Grandma loves college basketball probably even more than I do. Plus, she kicks major ass in the March Madness pools everywhere and always wins. Pretty awesome, huh?

In a completely unrelated note, I am getting a new car. Not my Escalade, have to have my Doctorate first, but this is the first car I will be paying for myself. I'm psyched to have a brand new car that is completely mine that no one else has ever driven before. It should all be taken care of within the next month or so.

FALL OUT BOY IN LESS THAN 48 HOURS!!!! I can't wait to see them, emo as they might be. Pete Wentz is pretty.

I don't get to go home for Thanksgiving because of the concert and having to go to stupid Iowa, but whatever, I can suffer in Iowa for a few hours if it means seeing Pete. I'll probably end up going with Shelly to her family Thanksgiving which will be cool.

That's all, it's seriously time for bed. The kids are going to be INSANE tomorrow.